tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69183681038426237702024-03-09T18:46:35.459-08:00Sophia Martin's Writing Blog... well, it's generally about my writing. Most days. Some days, it strays into other topics of interest to me.Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.comBlogger130125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-32827464517165111932020-03-10T02:37:00.002-07:002020-03-10T02:37:57.047-07:00StuckYep, I'm in a very stuck place right now.<br />
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It doesn't help that I've been pretty sick for a week (COVID-19? I don't know? I kinda hope so at this point because if not and I get that next I'm already worn out from this bout). I'm also hormonal so everything feels worse than it is. Disclaimer, I guess.<br />
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But none of that changes the fact that I've abandoned another story over 20K words into it (probably more, I don't really know) and I'm lost, creatively speaking.<br />
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I'm still at the writing job. So I'm still writing. In case you're not up to date, it's a job where I'm paid to write fiction, so...pretty amazing on a basic level. I'm a professional writer supporting my family with my writing. I'm incredibly proud of that and I feel very fortunate.<br />
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On another level, though, I'm really uneasy. I worry that the requirements imposed by this job are interfering with my own creativity. It's not all the job's fault, though. What it comes down to is that I can't decide <i>what</i> to write.<br />
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There's this idea I've had for a long time that I made two runs at. A Tower of Doors. A magical tower with thousands of doors leading to different worlds. I love that idea. I love the endless possibilities.<br />
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But I tried writing a hero/heroine's journey using it, and ended up stopping (I think at least 50K in?) last year when I was on the verge of getting hired by my current job because I wanted to write something quick for attention from that company. Inkitt. They have a Wattpad-like website. I wanted to get something up on it asap. So I wrote this short little romance/fantasy. It was fun, but not from my heart.<br />
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So then I got the job and was happy writing just for that for a while, and then things got frustrating and complicated as they do, and I realized it really was <i>not</i> enough. I had to write for myself.<br />
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So I started another Tower of Doors novel (also on the Inkitt website) and I had also really been wanting to try a "five man band." Except for reasons that aren't clear to me my five man band insisted on becoming a seven man band and it's unmanageable. And also unsatisfying because the characters are all 20-30 years old and something I keep coming back to is the need to write an older protagonist.<br />
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I can't seem to find a way to do that.<br />
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I like reading YA fiction. I tend to gravitate to it, in fact, I'm not sure why. What is it about YA that hooks me? Why can't I read books with 40 year old protagonists? Do they not exist* or am I just not looking in the right places for them? When I find one do I turn a blind eye without realizing it?<br />
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I'm also struggling with the question of whether the next thing I write should be another novel or a screenplay. I'm obviously much more comfortable with a novel. But maybe that's a reason to do a new format.<br />
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*I mean of course books with 40 year old protagonists exist. Just not necessarily with the kinds of stories I like. Fantasy/adventure stories. This is me, begging for recommendations.<br />
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I want to write a story with at least one Deaf character. Other characters with disabilities, too. But I worry I won't do it right. I had a Deaf character in the most recent Tower book, and I liked her. But would Deaf readers like her?<br />
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Representation is really important to me. I want to have PoC in my books. Someone on a forum recently said to me (she doesn't know me or anything I write) that if I cared about racism I wouldn't write PoC characters at all. That kind of gutted me.<br />
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I don't approach writing characters that are different from me arbitrarily. I research. But I get why someone would feel like that's not enough. It's just, if I don't include people with disabilities I don't have, people from cultures that are not mine, people who are of different races, or have other differences to me, then what kind of story do I end up with? The same white bread homogeneous crap I see way too much of already.<br />
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But I think this is contributing to my block. Because it's a tangle and I want to do right by people. It's fundamentally important to me. I can't just shrug and say "I'm not going to please everyone." I'm fine with not pleasing Nazis, and people like them. I do care about pleasing people from marginalized groups. I just do, it's part of who I am. And not because I want a cookie (though if I'm honest? I probably do, I just realize that's not helpful and try to squash it). Because I want to help change the world.<br />
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I think writing changes the world.<br />
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I think if you write white bread crap full of old tired tropes that have been shown to be harmful you're making the world a worse place. If instead you're creating fiction with new ideas, with suggestions of how the world could be, or with representations of how the world really is...that's positive.<br />
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But all these big ambitions aren't helping me come up with a story from my heart.<br />
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Paul Krueger, on Twitter, recently tweeted that you should really go ahead and write that super weird thing that's uniquely you because you'll find success that way. But like, I don't know what my super weird thing is.<br />
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What's your super weird thing? Have you written it?<br />
Got any book suggestions for me?<br />
<br />Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-80604967218581082162019-11-01T02:30:00.000-07:002019-11-01T02:37:42.219-07:00#amwritingI'm still working for Inkitt, though they are making some changes that may lead to my not being able to do that anymore. Hopefully at worst that's six months away, though. At best they'll alter course just enough that it doesn't come to pass. I really like this job and the way it is now, it fits really well for me and for my family.<br />
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One reason I started making time for my own writing again, after the first few months of writing for Galatea, was that I wanted to be able to have more freedom with it. Galatea has a specific format. Each episode has to be between 1600-1900 words, for instance. This often creates a situation where I just don't get to include the details I want to include. So I went into my own story promising myself to wax on as long as I wanted and...I can't. I mean, I do probably add more detail than I would in a Galatea story, but not much. Because now it feels like it's slowing the story down.<br />
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Even before I took the Galatea job I entered a phase of my writing in which I started reading books on plotting and other writing topics, and watching talks, and my husband even got me a subscription to <i>Masterclass</i>, which I loved and no longer have any time for (keep meaning to pick it back up though). So I've really been loading my brain with a lot of rules about how to approach a story. I've gone from being a pantser (for decades!) to a dedicated plotter. And I feel like the current result (I don't think it's in any way permanent) is that my writing is in this awkward growth spurt where I no longer have a strong sense of character or of what <i>I</i> really want to see happen. I'm trying to think of all the rules and structures and such that I've read about and that have resonated with me.<br />
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Finding a balance is hard. My short novel, <i><a href="https://www.inkitt.com/stories/romance/283444">Wild Wild Witch</a></i>, is a really good example of me privileging structure over character. I think it's a fun story but I'm also pretty sure that the characters, while likeable, aren't especially well-developed. In my new WiP, <i><a href="https://www.inkitt.com/stories/fantasy/379552">The Tower of Doors</a></i>, I've tasked myself with continuing to use everything I've learned, but to <i>also</i> really digging into the characters. And... I'm finding it hard. Characters (mine anyway) that are well-developed tend to want to go off script. And I'm not comfortable with that right now. And yet, I think characters are what's most important to me, especially if you include setting as a character.<br />
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Anyway, if you want to support my writing in a really substantial way, you can FOR FREE, by going to Inkitt and reading <i><a href="https://www.inkitt.com/stories/mystery/381201">The River and the Roses</a></i>. I have a tentative plan with my supervisor at Galatea that if I get enough reads (measured by people clicking on "next chapter"), they'll develop <i>River</i> on the app. Which would mean royalties, y'all. It would be really, really exciting.<br />
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I also always appreciate honest reviews.<br />
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What's new for you?<br />
Have you ever felt like you were in an awkward growing phase of your writing?<br />
What do you think is most important (if you <i>had</i> to choose), character or structure?<br />
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<br />Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-75577635413480405452019-10-05T08:07:00.000-07:002019-10-05T08:07:32.553-07:00Professional writer.I'm a little surprised I never came here to update you about the new turn my writing life has taken; then again, I am pretty busy these days.<br />
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I got hired by Inkitt to be a "script writer" for their app, Galatea. Yes, I am now a full-time, self (and family) supporting writer, guys.<br />
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Galatea takes stories people post on Inkitt (it's similar to Wattpad) and has people like me adapt them to an episodic format. Then they have designers add on immersive elements like sound effects and music.<br />
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Yes, I write werewolf romance (usually--I did work on one thriller) professionally now.<br />
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I've been working for Inkitt since late April and, for the most part, it's been <i>amazing</i>.<br />
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There are moments when it is not amazing, but even on those days, I can still ask myself if I'd rather be doing anything else, and the answer is HELL NO.<br />
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I've even started carving out time here and there for my own writing projects... I'll be posting the first few chapters of a new novel on Inkitt soon. You can also read the short novel I wrote while waiting to hear back if I was hired <a href="https://www.inkitt.com/stories/romance/283444">here</a>.<br />
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I'm learning a ton. We work in teams and collaborating is not always easy, though I've really come to appreciate it as a way to bump up creativity and get feedback. Just recently I was on a solo project and I actually felt kind of ambivalent about it. On the one hand, it made maintaining consistency across all of the episodes in the "season" (they use TV terminology for their stories) easier, but it also felt like I was missing that feedback and support.<br />
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Oh, and by the way, <a href="https://www.inkitt.com/jobs">they are hiring</a>, and you can work from home.<br />
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What new turns has your writing life taken in recent months?<br />
Have you checked out Galatea?<br />
What do you think of adding sound effects and music to something people read?Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-17490304631169181212019-04-16T22:45:00.000-07:002019-04-16T22:45:12.644-07:00Finished my book!Yep. I did. I finished the short novel, <i><a href="https://www.inkitt.com/stories/romance/283444">Wild Wild Witch</a>, </i>that I have been <a href="http://sophia-martin.blogspot.com/2019/04/inkitt-publishing-as-you-go.html">posting as I go</a> on Inkitt. Happy dance!<br />
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I have a lot of fun with this book. It's a fantasy/western/romance with a little bit of horror thrown in for good measure. I set out to write a romance, and then I was like, "Hey, why not try a little genre blending... I'll make a western, too." Then I thought, "What's a story without fantasy elements? I like fantasy stories the most, so I'd better make it a romance-western-fantasy." And then as I was writing the last chapters the horror just made sense.<br />
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This book taught me a few things about my writing.<br />
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1) I am incapable of writing anything simple.<br />
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2) I seem to be compulsive about things my character <i>does</i> going wrong, as opposed to having a lot of external obstacles get in their way. In my next story, I'm going to try not to do that. Not that I regret anything about this story--I think it all works very well and is entertaining. But I feel like if this is my pattern I have to try to push myself outside of it. It comes from an anxiety that introducing external obstacles will somehow feel contrived. I'm not sure where this anxiety comes from.<br />
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3) I want to work on creating more layered villains. My two major villains in this book are <a href="https://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/HateSink">hate sinks</a>. I realized as I was writing <i>Witch</i> that I really am not instinctively interested in my villains in and of themselves, other than as hate sinks. I <i>am</i> very interested in my protagonists and supporting characters, but on some level the fact that my villains are villains makes me dislike them and I don't want to spend much time on them other than to make them hate-worthy. Which isn't to say I've never written layered villains--I have. I think Reister is interesting (more so than Finnarun, who falls more into hate sink territory again) and I don't even really consider Liut a villain despite what he does. But I think they developed into interesting villains not because I planned them that way but because the story called for it, if that makes sense. With my next villain(s) I will take time to really plan and try to give them redeeming qualities that make them more complex.<br />
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Who are some of your favorite villains in novels, films, and TV? Are they hate sinks, or more complex?<br />
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<br />Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-3728950138589563572019-04-07T01:32:00.000-07:002019-04-07T01:33:22.980-07:00Inkitt: Publishing as You GoI recently discovered <a href="http://inkitt.com/">Inkitt.com</a>, which is, I gather, a lot like Wattpad. I've dabbled a little on Wattpad but never done very much. I decided to try out Inkitt a bit more thoroughly. Maybe it's the novel contest. I don't know. Does Wattpad have a novel contest? It's possible that everything I like about Inkitt is the same on Wattpad, I'm just not that familiar with that platform.<br />
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I'm on Chapter 16 and I think there are only a couple more chapters to go. The story is definitely winding down; I'm just not sure how long it's going to take to write everything. It's not going to be a very long book, in fact... barely a novel by word count standards. But I've been approaching it more in terms of episodes, with each chapter being an episode. I'm playing around.<br />
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It's one of the first things I've written with a thorough outline. With the WiP I set aside a couple of months ago (that I still hope to return to) I did a lot of outlining, but that is a huge monster of a book and I don't know how long it will take to write the whole thing. This one is much shorter. I wanted to try a few things. Romance, for one. It's a genre I have been wanting to have a go at for a while. <i>Veronica in Paris</i> is a romance, but it started out as a chapter of <i>The River and the Roses</i> so it wasn't like, "Hm, I think I will sit down and write a romance today." I've always been a fan of soap operas, and I wanted to see if I could capture some of the qualities of a soap that I love in a novel. And I wanted to mix genres: romance/supernatural/western/thriller.<br />
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I think when it's done it's going to be a fun little book. Nothing earth shattering, but I do think it's going to succeed at what I want it to do, which is show people a good time. I'm having a good time writing it.<br />
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What are your projects, these days? Trying anything new?Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-4743204287015458312019-03-27T01:22:00.000-07:002019-03-27T01:22:44.717-07:00Masterclass: Figuring out what people needI got an early birthday present: a subscription to Masterclass. So far I've watched the first three episodes of Shonda Rhimes's <i>Writing for TV</i> and the first two episodes of Steve Martin's <i>Comedy</i> classes. It's cool: you get four of Rhimes's scripts to download and you get a workbook with each class. I haven't explored what else you get with Martin's class yet. There are at least seven classes I want to take and Rhime's class has something like 30 episodes, I think, so I expect it to be the same for the others. So far, worth the subscription fee, which is $180 for the year, with access to everything.<br />
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The thing that struck me after watching the episodes tonight is that when Martin and Rhimes each talked about choosing ideas to pursue--in Martin's case for stand up routines, and in Rhimes's case when choosing what to write a show about--they both said the same thing. You have to get a sense for where people are at--in the world, in the nation, in your own community--and give them the opposite.<br />
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When choosing an idea, consider the current tone of tv, film, and reality. If the world is more optimistic, a pessimistic show will work. If the world is more pessimistic, an optimistic show will work.<br />
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Rhimes explained that under Bush, <i>The West Wing</i>, a very optimistic spin on the presidency, was popular because people wanted to escape the reality of how upsetting and frustrating the Bush Administration was. Under Obama, <i>Scandal</i>, a cynical show about “monsters” in DC, worked, because people were feeling a lot of hope.<br />
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Martin said something really similar. He said that when he was doing stand up in the late 60s and early 70s, he was dressing as a hippy and that everything was very political. You said the name "Richard Nixon" and it would immediately get a response in the audience. But he realized people were getting tired of it. The nation was. So he shaved his beard and cut his hair and put on a suit and became part of a new movement. Apolitical comedy. Because that was the void that needed to be filled.<br />
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It’s probably what separates people who are wildly successful from people who are just getting along. Are you addressing something that’s missing? Have you found a hole to fill? Are you giving people the opposite of what’s dominating the world right now?<br />
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On a political level, it seems to me that what’s dominating the world right now is this evil cruelty--anarcho-capitalism, profit at all costs, fuck everyone who isn’t going to make money for the 1%. But there’s also a strong presence of the opposite: people demanding recognition of wrongs: the #MeToo movement, outrage over displays of cruelty and racism, etc.<br />
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We have plenty of escapism, too. So many superhero movies.<br />
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So what isn’t being addressed?<br />
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What <i>is</i>: heroes, good and evil, the end of the world, fear, hatred, xenophobia, survival of the fittest, wealth as virtue. Sensitivity, triggers, introversion. Everyone loves dogs. Many people vocally love cats. Coffee is essential. I love all those things, too. I am happiest on Twitter retweeting a cute cat video, while making a joke about coffee and implying that my introversion has once again gotten in the way of the success of some social interaction I attempted. This is where a lot of us are at. Should creatives be trying to find the opposite of that? What is the opposite of that?<br />
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Are shows and films giving us dogs and coffee, though? Maybe dogs and coffee already is the opposite of what shows and films are all about these days.<br />
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I mean, people would probably enjoy being free of extreme politics.<br />
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I know I’d like to not have to worry about the end of the world (no offense to <i>The Umbrella Academy</i>, which I very much enjoyed--but yeah, the part with the moon was like the most terrifying thing I've ever seen and it's all related to the real terror of what is going to happen to our world if we don't get it together as a fucking species). I think if I'm really looking for escapism, I'm going to look for a show that's not terrifying me with an apocalyptic scenario.<br />
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A show that's trying to give us the opposite of our reality right now would have:<br />
People behaving with logic. Facts being facts. Fake news having no power, because it is once again possible to have irrefutable proof.<br />
A story where people really are who they say they are. <i>Cheers</i> would be appealing. Regular people, no one is fake, everyone is who they say they are. No one is cruel or has more power than anyone else. And also no one has any significant trauma or issues, for those on the other side of things who are fed up with that.<br />
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Which, I mean, is great if you want to write <i>Cheers</i>, but I don’t.<br />
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What would a show look like that was trying to be fundamentally optimistic, in opposition to the absolute shitstorm that our collective reality has become? Look at the stats on the increase in depression and anxiety disorders since 2016. Speaking for myself, every time I hear about kids in cages I feel like real life has become every dystopia, every nightmare I've ever thought was terrible but could never be real. Oh sure, it happened in the past, but that's <i>history</i>. I studied history because I found it fascinating, and without realizing it, I thought the things I was studying were <i>safely in the past.</i> But they most certainly aren't and it's horrifying.<br />
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And people justifying these atrocities are the worst part.<br />
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Didn't we all grow up on the same stories? Didn't we all learn that the empire is evil? That no matter who is doing it and why they say they are doing it, <i>putting babies in cages is fucking evil?</i><br />
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Nothing makes sense anymore.<br />
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So, yeah. A show or a novel or whatever medium, would have to present a world where things make sense. Evil is recognized by everyone as evil. Good triumphs. None of those we count on in power turn out to be compromised and/or spineless and incapable of stopping the evil and bringing it to justice.<br />
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No wonder superhero movies keep coming out.<br />
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But I think the intriguing thing is, because there are so many superhero movies, that implies that the void to be filled is something else. Just as Steve Martin recognized that even though people reacted to his mentioning Richard Nixon, they were tired of politics in comedy, I see people coming back, over and over, to superheroes--but people are tired of superheroes. It's like, yes, we want this, we need this, this story where things make sense and counter everything that sucks about our world, but we've been coming back to it for years and years now. What's the thing we don't even know we want?<br />
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What do you think it might be?<br />
Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-84103315110381943492018-11-11T18:58:00.000-08:002018-11-11T18:58:03.490-08:00Not NanoingAs Nanowrimo passes me by this year, and my prescription for my SSRI has run out without refills because I don't have a doctor locally yet, I am struggling with inertia, frustration, and feeling a little lost.<br />
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Kauai is not an easy place to live, despite being a wonderful place to have an amazing time. I have had more fun in the months since we moved here--more unadulterated joyous fun--than I had in the last ten years, easily. I love the ocean, I love waves, and I (newly) love boogie boarding. It's heaven, in that respect.<br />
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Yesterday there was a sea turtle sunbathing on the beach. It's the third one we've seen doing that since August. I mean, flipping AMAZING.<br />
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It's the most beautiful place I've ever lived. And I've lived in some beautiful places, and I even feel disloyal to those places saying it, but let's be real. There are flowers <i>everywhere.</i> In the bushes, in the grass, on the trees, in people's hair, <i>everywhere. </i>Rainbows are almost a daily occurrence. I'm not even exaggerating, I think it might actually be <i>daily</i>. I love the wild chickens, trailing chicks behind them peeping, and the flamboyant roosters everywhere. Geckos--some bright green--on the walls. People don't dress as tacky. I mean, I'm not the fashion police (like, <i>at all).</i> But give me Hawaiian prints over hot pink zebra stripes any day.<br />
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But everything you heard about it being expensive is true. It's oddly not the way I expected, somehow, though I didn't have a clear idea anyway. But Jeff and I are both working full time, and we borrowed several thousand dollars from family to move, and now I'm really stressing because we barely make ends meet and we have to pay these people back. I cannot live with not paying them back in a timely manner, I just can't deal with it. They were <i>so generous</i> to help us and we're eating ramen and quesadillas most nights and we are overdrawn in one bank account. It's overwhelming.<br />
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Getting a new driver's license is going to be a mountain to climb because I'd let my CA one expire so now I have to go through the whole process--road test, learner's permit, the works.<br />
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I have yet to get all my paperwork in to the Hawaii DOE for my job and I'm afraid that when I do they'll dock my salary because of sticky details that shouldn't make a difference but probably will.<br />
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My job has these wonderful aspects and these super annoying and stressful aspects that I won't go into detail about. All I'll say is that I'm very grateful to be working with the co-teacher I'm with. He's awesome.<br />
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And Jeff is seriously considering applying for PhD programs so it's likely we'll move at the end of this year. Which, considering all the things that make living here hard, is probably going to be the best thing in the long run. But it's more uncertainty and another hella expensive and challenging move... my three year old regressed on potty training with the Kauai move--will he be in diapers in Kindergarten if we move again?<br />
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I'm venting. I started out writing this post as a way to feel like I <i>am</i> writing even though my WiP is sitting in a digital drawer gathering binary dust instead of moving along in the Nanowrimo flow. I miss the Nanowrimo flow. I miss having more than a half an hour to write once a week when I should be lesson planning.<br />
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Anyway... are you doing Nano this year?<br />
What uncertainties are you staring down these days?Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-59952447309464112062018-10-25T18:27:00.000-07:002018-10-25T18:27:26.385-07:00Wow, it's been a year!Jeez, guys! I'm sorry I've been so MIA. I didn't realize so much time had passed.<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaSxzOhXfoaaPu7U312IhYWThl6n_-MOfdkVI8WlChWDZNL5pTX9EJ4hnKbXTRcy0RNc3o4EOGe7m1vYi-VBhlhlTAttoj3qFzPpbS9ZUFNBdH2lLDjQcnYMEiazrNFuQYk_vFckORut43/s1600/waimea-canyon-rainbow.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaSxzOhXfoaaPu7U312IhYWThl6n_-MOfdkVI8WlChWDZNL5pTX9EJ4hnKbXTRcy0RNc3o4EOGe7m1vYi-VBhlhlTAttoj3qFzPpbS9ZUFNBdH2lLDjQcnYMEiazrNFuQYk_vFckORut43/s320/waimea-canyon-rainbow.jpg" width="320" /></a>Last year was busy and in many ways a great year. I really enjoyed my teaching job and got to do a *lot* of new projects which is probably one of the main reasons I let this blog sleep for so long. Then this summer several not-so-great things happened which definitely cramped my writing style both in terms of any blogging that might have happened and any novel writing. But that led to an amazing new chapter in my life: we moved to Hawai'i--the Garden Isle of Kaua'i, to be precise.<br />
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There's been a bumpy adjustment period. Many things have changed. For one thing, I'm now teaching middle school math! I really enjoy it, but it is <i>very</i> different from what I was doing before (one of the bad things that happened is that the district closed my school--I'm heartbroken about that). I've started a blog where I'm going to explain how to teach certain math lessons. It's mainly for the parents of my students to use, but you can check it out <a href="https://mathy-blog.blogspot.com/">here</a>, if you're curious.<br />
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There's a writer's conference locally in November and I really want to go! One of my goals for this new WiP, which is not set in any of my previous universes, is to attempt to go the traditional publishing route. I make no promises. I may lose patience with that very quickly. One of the reasons I indie publish is that I am a control freak so it really suits me to do everything myself. But I've decided I want to give it a shot, just to see what happens.<br />
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I'm snatching little moments here and there to work on the WiP. Like, sometimes only 15 minutes. It's better than nothing. And honestly I'm totally out of the habit of writing for long stints. I stayed home from work one day and could have written for hours and could only manage an hour or so.<br />
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For the current WiP I've been doing a lot more planning, outlining, etc. than ever before. I used to be such a pantser. But it's been a gradual process over the last few years propelled by the challenge of not having regular time to write. Now with my writing time in ever more brief snippets, the outline and brainstorms and character descriptions and everything are absolutely essential. There is no way I'd keep track of anything without them.<br />
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I have 29K words done and I wish I thought I could do NaNo this year. Maybe I'll try to set myself a more attainable goal and go for it.<br />
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How about you, where are you at with your creative projects? How have things changed for you over the years? Let me know in the comments!Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-3546918262213487202017-10-18T13:58:00.000-07:002017-10-18T13:58:20.995-07:00Long Overdue UpdateHi everyone! It's been several months. I figured I should check in for those who may have been wondering whether I fell off the face of the earth. I have to be quick, though--the whole reason I've been so bad about posting is that I only get these short snippets of time when the younger boys are both napping and I use that time to write my novels--or, currently, to world build.<br />
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Anyway, I went into the summer with no job, after getting laid off from my teaching job. My husband <br />
handled this by letting me take time almost every day to write. I finished the first draft of the third novel in the Raud Grima trilogy! It's 200K words! Yikes! I tackled 4 POVs at once, something I've never done before and decided I love to do. One beta has already gotten back to me (thank you, Rick!).<br />
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I got hired back to my old job, which is great! But they also piled on twice the work for no increase in time. Not so great. But I'm teaching English now in addition to social studies and it made me realize how much I actually do like to teach English. So that's really cool to know because I'd decided I didn't like it a while back and wasn't really looking for English jobs when I'd do searches in other areas. Now I will. I also continue to have a good relationship with my administrator, who is adding to my schedule with hourly assignments (meaning I'm paid hourly; it doesn't increase my FTE) and she says she wants to increase my percentage next year (which <i>would</i> increase my FTE) and that makes me want to stay. I'm also doing some awesome projects with my students and a professional film maker, involving a documentary about substance abuse in our county and another one concerning the deaf community in our county.<br />
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On a horrifying note, however, one of my former students and someone I considered a friend was murdered by her ex last week. I had just invited her to a writing group I started, too, and was waiting to hear back from her when I got the news. I've been thinking about her a lot.<br />
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But anyway. I started a writing group and the people involved are <i>awesome</i> and I'm so happy about that! I'm currently world building for a new novel. That's going to take me a long time, as I'm using <a href="https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WS8w9OGPKQTxWUPFXQEIf_e_HQw6_vi5-UYf3MVc3B8/edit?hl=en_US">Patricia Wrede's fabulous list of world building questions</a>* (it's 30 pages long before you start answering them, folks). I plan to do them not just for one setting, but six, as the book will have stories starting in six different countries in this world I'm calling Temel. I started in August and am not done with the first country yet, to give you an idea.<br />
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I also discovered the <a href="https://mythcreants.com/blog/using-the-heroines-journey/">Heroine's Journey</a> which, I say without reservation, is the only thing I've ever encountered that seems to be an authentic and accessible cure for toxic masculinity. I will be using it in the Temel book and probably many times afterwards. It was created at first for use in therapy by one of Joseph Campbell (of Hero's Journey fame)'s students, and the link above takes you to the mythcreants site where they have explain it in terms that work for writing. I was galvanized by this discovery--I never considered that there might be a female counterpart to the Hero's Journey. I just thought it was applicable to both male and female characters (which I still assert that it is). But reading the Heroine's Journey (also applicable to any and all genders) made me realize what I've been missing. Check it out, seriously. And call everyone you know in Hollywood and TV and make them use it.<br />
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So anyway, I have to get back to the world building.<br />
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What's new with you?<br />
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<i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Image courstey of Andreas Bogdain [GFDL 1.2 (http://www.gnu.org/licenses/old-licenses/fdl-1.2.html)], via Wikimedia Commons</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-size: x-small;">* This link opens a Google Doc. You can also find Wrede's questions <a href="http://www.pcwrede.com/fantasy-worldbuilding-questions-the-world/">on her website</a>.</span></i>Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-45477090225339386312017-06-09T09:31:00.000-07:002017-06-09T09:31:43.031-07:00Today I step into uncertainty<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Today is my last day at my current job. Back in March I got a lay off notice. I was completely blindsided. I've often complained about this job (teaching social studies in a continuation high school) and I've wanted to move on to something else, but I also have been doing this for seven years. I never anticipated getting laid off. There are parts of this job that I really love. There are parts that have been incredibly difficult. This year we got a new principal, though, and it made a big difference--a lot of the problems I had in previous years were due to extremely poor management. Back in January I helped write the WASC report for the school, and my colleagues and I were full of great new ideas for new offerings and ways to expand, because the school is doing really, really well. Too well, apparently. We have drawn too many students away from another school in the district, one that is the pet of the superintendent, and he decided to cripple my school. I won't go into the details, but he sat down across from me and essentially told me this exact thing, so you'll have to bear with me. I know it sounds melodramatic. A LOT of things that happen in this district seem to belong on tv dramas, not in reality.<br />
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I wanted this blow to turn into something good. "You've been talking about moving on to something new for years, Sophia," I told myself. "This will be the push that makes it happen. Onward and upward!" My husband (also a teacher) and I applied in several places, some out of state. We were offered jobs at a high school in Tucson. My job was going to be to teach American history and "Criminal Minds," which looks at criminals in literature and history, with elements of forensic psychology. How cool is that? But the pay for teachers in Tucson is very low, and we have two sons who are not yet school age. Between the cost of child care and the 11.4% they take out for retirement, we would have been left with $2300 a month (from <i>both</i> our checks) for rent and everything else. We couldn't do it. I was devastated.<br />
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Since then I've applied to more places. I've tried to make jobs come together through various local possibilities. So far, nothing has coalesced.<br />
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So today, as I clean up my classroom for the last time, I face going into the summer not knowing where I'll be in the fall. I may be filing for unemployment. One of these options I've been trying to make happen may finally come together (or maybe even more than one). Jeff and I may get jobs somewhere else and have to move. I even applied for an administrative job with the county office of education, though I think that one's a long shot.<br />
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That uncertainty is exhausting. All the work I've done coming to nothing is also very discouraging. At this point I don't feel like I <i>can</i> make anything happen, and it's better to just give up and float on the wind like Forrest Gump's feather. But I'm scared of what will happen if I let go--if I end up on unemployment, that lasts six months. And then what? How will we pay for groceries after that runs out?<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5VlJ_-0hFS03KWrtjgM37Kjs5a1rQCTjWbDyJu_cG-sShggL_NN8BguUvERRaxqKE6BcEMOi7tELCgJgEw6IKXjgmp-juLJgTRZ0kzI50J87zdMJ2dv5gvNN6oeZYkJpFR5wM8t4sB1Nn/s1600/munch32.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="773" data-original-width="594" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5VlJ_-0hFS03KWrtjgM37Kjs5a1rQCTjWbDyJu_cG-sShggL_NN8BguUvERRaxqKE6BcEMOi7tELCgJgEw6IKXjgmp-juLJgTRZ0kzI50J87zdMJ2dv5gvNN6oeZYkJpFR5wM8t4sB1Nn/s320/munch32.jpg" width="245" /></a>"More time to write!" you say. Well, no, not really. When I'm at home my boys take up all my time and energy. We're keeping them in daycare for a while this summer, so yes, during that time I am definitely going to push to finish the WiP. But if nothing comes together for me, we're going to have to stop paying for daycare. I'll be a stay at home mom. I know some people love that. I do not. I already have some issues with the yellow wallpaper, and that's working part time. The idea of being a full time stay at home mom has me doing the <i>Scream</i> thing. And let me tell you, the number of people who have clapped me on the back and said, "Hey, you'll get to stay home with your kids!" like it's this great thing I've always wanted... oh my god, people. Check your damn assumptions.<br />
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There's also all the cheerful people who bounce up to me, "So, what're your plans?" like <i>clearly</i> I must have something fantastic and exciting lined up. Yeah, I did. It fell through. Nothing else has come together. No, I don't know what I'm going to be doing.<br />
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And inevitably, "Well, have you tried this? Have you applied here? How about there?"<br />
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Yes, yes, and <i>yes,</i> for the love of all that's holy. I also applied there, there, there, and <i>there,</i> and I spoke to so-and-so about this and that, and these other people, too, and there <i>still </i>isn't anything. You know, between the international teaching jobs I applied for this winter and all the jobs I've applied for since the lay off, I have applied for over 100 jobs. Seriously. One fucking hundred. It should not be this hard.<br />
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"Oh. Well. Good luck." And I swear they side-eye me like they think I'm just being negative. <br />
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So anyway, at this point something is either going to fall in my lap or I'm going to be unemployed and looking at working at the local hardware store when those checks dry up. I hope the former. Send me good thoughts. <br />
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<br />Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-35505552627773550882017-01-25T16:19:00.000-08:002017-01-25T16:19:04.797-08:00Writing again, despite fatigue and lack of time!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I've been going nuts for months now with inspiration for new stories and ideas for the WiPs (mainly the third Raud Grima book, tentatively titled <i>Masks in the Glow</i>). And up until the winter break I just couldn't find the time or the energy, except for occasionally rereading already written passages of <i>Masks </i>and tinkering with them. Then over winter break we got me a new laptop (the kids smashed the old one) and I carved out two chunks of time for writing. Since then, I've managed to write several more times, mainly in the evenings while dinner's cooking and for a little while after. Historically evenings have never been my writing time. Too tired out by the day for any kind of good concentration. But desperate times call for desperate measures.<br />
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So I'm very slowly making progress on <i>Masks,</i> which may end up not being called <i>Masks</i> because it's looking like it's going to be upwards of 200K words and therefore will have to be split into two. If that's how it works out (I'm not sure because I devised a way to shortcut the story and I haven't decided whether I want to go that route or not) then probably the fourth and last book will get the <i>Masks</i> title and book three will have to go by something else.<br />
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This series is definitely shaking out to be weird in a lot of ways. First just going with the dystopian decopunk angle, which you don't run into very much. And certainly not often with the Fritz Lang inspiration so central. So there's that, to begin with. I mean from the start I've run into people who just <a href="http://sophia-martin.blogspot.com/2014/02/my-art-deco-city-can-have-robots-why.html">scratch their heads at the whole concept of robots in an art deco city</a>.<br />
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I chose from the beginning to challenge myself to write scenes that make me uncomfortable. I address one of my greatest fears in the book--the loss of a child--which probably doesn't weird anyone out. But I also pushed myself to write sex scenes, which is not something I'm generally comfortable with. And I wanted them to be real, with heat and in some cases disturbing elements. So yeah, that has certainly colored both <i><a href="http://amzn.to/2klecCX">The City Darkens</a> </i>and <i><a href="http://amzn.to/2kuO7VH">After the Fall</a></i> and based on the few reviews I've gotten, people either appreciate what I was trying to do or are really put off by all the sex.<br />
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Then, in <i>After the Fall</i>, I switch narrators. I knew that was unconventional and would probably put people off. It's not like it's never been done before or anything, but it's a risky thing to do. I did it because I couldn't figure out what to do with Myadar. I wanted to keep talking about this city that's going through a revolution and there was no good reason for Myadar to get in the middle of that. At least, not right away. So I thought about what I wanted to talk about--I wanted to have the books progress a bit like the decades that comprise dieselpunk--<i>City </i>was the 1920s, <i>Fall</i> was the 1930s (sort of--certainly with a look towards what was happening in China at the time), and <i>Masks</i> would be the 40s. In no way am I trying to tell a history of America or even Earth, though. I just want parts of the setting, the events, the things people do, to resonate, like, "<i>Oh</i>, I see what she's doing there!" Anyway, so <i>Fall </i>was going to be about survival, first and foremost. How does an ordinary person survive a cataclysm in her city? What would that survival look like? Who threatens it? I thought of my graduate professor of African history talking about the role of young men, packs of violent young men, in unstable environments. And since I was also reading about <a href="http://sophia-martin.blogspot.com/2013/04/grimdark-and-violence-in-fantasy.html">grimdark</a> at the time, and the ways people were (perhaps) mishandling violence in fiction, particularly sexual violence, I wanted to try my hand at that, and see if I could pull it off in a way I could live with. And I allowed Ginna to embody my own struggle with the necessity of violence. To top it off, I believe that the second installment in a trilogy (which is what I intended this series to be) <a href="http://amzn.to/2jgcwZO">should end badly</a>. So the result was a novel that's really not very satisfying to some readers.<br />
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And now, <i>Masks</i> will be different yet again. For one thing, it has four POVs. For another, so far, no sex. And in it I'm trying to resolve both my conflicted feelings about using violence in fiction and Ginna's conflicted feelings about using violence to win the war. I am also really focused on characters that are not inherently good (Ginna is, though). Plus my original idea was to go very dark and flirt with atompunk, and though I may still have an element of that (inspired, perhaps, by <i><a href="http://amzn.to/2jqVcou">Akira</a></i>), the aesthetics of light decopunk like <i><a href="http://amzn.to/2k57pA2">Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow</a> </i>are still really appealing to me. So I've revisited what one of the big threats will be and I've reimagined it, and it's probably going to strike people as even weirder than robots in a deco city. I guess we'll see.<br />
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<i>Masks i</i>s already 100K words and even if I do the shortcut I mentioned, I'm probably looking at at least another 40K. So I'm leaning towards writing the long version, seeing how many words it is, and deciding based on that whether to split it.<br />
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If you were reading a series, would you rather that the last book be very long, or that what you thought would be the last book ends in a cliff hanger and you have to read yet another book to finally get the resolution?<br />
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Does it bother you when books in a series have different POVs?<br />
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Would you be frustrated if the first books had several sex scenes and the last had few to none?<br />
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What do you think of violence in fiction?Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-8033710943835000042016-11-14T15:36:00.000-08:002016-11-14T15:36:12.724-08:00Exhaustion, Fear, Sorrow and RageAll getting in the way of my writing.<br />
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What can I say, the election was certainly historic.<br />
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A personal friend was the victim of a Trump-fueled hate crime.<br />
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I am swinging between each of the titular emotions I listed at any given time. It's definitely getting in the way of my ability to concentrate. But today I am going to write a paragraph into the first chapter of <i>Masks in the Glow</i> that is directly inspired by the election. And I will continue to work on this WiP with this election in mind. After all, <i>The City Darkens</i> didn't come out of nowhere. I just didn't think we'd have our own dystopia unfolding within a couple of years of its publication.<br />
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I don't know what this means for the future of my writing--I had plans for the next novel(s), and they were not dystopic. And I may still go forward with the main idea--I was going to try to create a beautiful world, one that I would enjoy escaping to. Which was actually the plan with <i>The City Darkens</i> but then it didn't work out that way at all! But maybe now my readers need it more than ever, and I certainly will be seeking out such worlds to immerse myself in, as I choose the novels I will be reading.<br />
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But I also feel like dystopia may well be the way to go. I only have so many ways to try to warn the world, to try to stop the tide--and it may be futile. Hell, it might be like painting a target on my back. I know this comes off as melodramatic, but the man asked multiple times why we don't just use our nukes. We are in a melodramatic age.<br />
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I plan to join some progressive groups locally and I have another plan I'm following through on but it's going to be a few months before I get a sense of whether it's likely to come to fruition.<br />
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No matter what, I have to get back to writing. I am not really well unless I'm writing--at least not in times like these.Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-41690639881180760282016-10-31T15:23:00.000-07:002016-10-31T15:23:27.306-07:00No Nano this year...At least, not the real 50K deal. My quiet goal is to work on my current WiP every day, or as close to it as I can. I know last year I embraced the challenge Kristen Lamb threw down to MAKE TIME. And I'm hoping next year that'll be possible, maybe. Sigh. This year I just don't see it. Between actual demands on my time and the exhaustion that some days makes it impossible to concentrate, it's too much. Do I sound like I'm arguing with someone? I am. I am arguing with the part of myself that only cares about my writing. That part is like, DUDE. IT'S NEVER GOING TO BE EASY TO SCHEDULE WRITING TIME. But right now I'm a nursing a baby parenting three kids under five part time teaching trying to keep the house from exploding machine. I'm just hoping next year, it'll be more doable. The eldest will be in school, the middle will be in preschool, and the littlest will still be napping. BY GOD HE WILL STILL BE NAPPING.<br />
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Anyway. I'm working on <i>Masks in the Glow,</i> the third book in the Raud Grima trilogy. The other day for the first time in months I did some work on it, rereading most of the sections for one point of view (I ran out of time but the goal was to read them all) and improving them. One of the things I'm really focusing on in this novel is voice--I have four points of view that I switch between and I really want each to be so distinct you'd have no trouble reading a couple of lines and figuring out which character it is.<br />
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Oh, and <b><i><span style="font-size: large;">pretty cool news</span></i></b>:<br />
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On November 18 I'm going to be interviewed on <a href="http://sevantownsend.com/">S. Evan Townsend</a>'s Speculative Fiction Cantina program on the <a href="http://writestreamradio.com/">Writestream Radio Network</a>. He says to prepare to read a 5 to 8 minute section of one of my books (PG-13 rated). Um. This makes me really nervous. I'm going to have to practice reading it about fifty times. I don't know what to choose, either. Suggestions welcome!Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-83969378518183041152016-07-09T17:37:00.002-07:002016-07-17T17:02:23.366-07:00Guest Post: "Six Movies That Never Should Have Been Remade" by IsaWell, everyone, the baby came 4 weeks early! It was a big surprise, as I'd convinced myself he was going to go all the way to term (there were signs that wasn't going to be the case, but I decided they were just false alarms). I'm very happy to say he's doing really well. But as a result, all my writing and social media time has pretty much vanished. What luck that Isa from Culture Coverage contacted me to propose that she contribute a guest post to this blog! I'm very pleased to present her post on six films that should never have been remade. Enjoy!<br />
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<i>Movies are more than just entertainment; they are a form of art. As such, it's everyone's duty to put on the hat of the critic from time to time. I would like to express my appreciation to sophia-martin.blogspot.com for affording the opportunity to do so with this post. When you're finished reading, it's worth checking out some of the other content on this site!</i><br />
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But then there are “those” movies. We’ve all seen one before; they’re remakes of movies we once loved. Even if the originals lacked the technology, were horribly campy, or deviated hugely from their source material (in the case of films based on books), there was something we loved about them. But the remakes often fail to capture that spirit.<br />
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A few remakes were done so poorly that the fans of their basis have mentally distanced themselves from them like a bad memory. Those are the films we’ll be looking at today.<br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;"><i>Psycho </i>(1998)</span></b><br />
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Movie remakes usually hope to bring something new to the table. Whether they tweak the story, add new special effects, or update the setting to reflect a more modern and relevant feel to audiences, there’s usually something distinctly different. This is not the case with the 1998 remake of “Psycho.”<br />
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For some unknown reason the remake of "Psycho" is virtually shot for shot identical to the original piece from 1960. True, there are a few differences; the movie is shot in color with a higher quality playback rate on the audio, and the cast is entirely different. But the actual scenes haven't changed at all.<br />
In fact, a lot is lost in transferring the film to color. Without the dim, dark environment (and no special effects to help instill that same feeling in color) the film is abjectly inferior to the original. The cast also lacks the authenticity of the original actors, particularly Norman Bates (now depicted by…Vince Vaughn?...) whose character was designed to start off very innocent, almost non-offensive.<br />
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Perhaps had the film brought something new to the table, it would have fared better. Ironically the next movie tried to do exactly that and was even worse.<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><i>Godzilla </i>(1998)</b></span><br />
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Oh my goodness gracious, I just don't know where to begin. There is so much wrong with what fans have come to know with disdain as "Godzilla '98" that it could use its own government-backed study.<br />
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To begin with, Godzilla has always been a franchise of very mediocre acting; there’s plot in each film, but the focus is really on the kaiju (the big monsters). Whether Godzilla is facing Rodan or King Gidorah, the movie is about him. And for a monster that was created by nuclear radiation that destroys cities (exclusively in Japan) he often ends up depicted as the hero.<br />
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The American adaptation captured very little if any of Godzilla’s essence. Instead, he’s just a big angry lizard destroying New York; “he” also lays a ton of eggs that are an essential plot point, although a confusing point at best.<br />
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Besides rarely actually showing Godzilla in the film (perhaps due to budget limitations), the film is distinctly about the people with Godzilla used merely as a plot point. He also has no atomic breath, a huge disappointment to fans. Perhaps the film would have done better had it not tried to tie itself to the Godzilla franchise and just been called “Big Lizard in New York.”<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><i>The Haunting</i> (1999)</b></span><br />
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The remake for “The Haunting” can only be described as a victim of 1999. It tried to take the original films concepts and make them grander. The sets are huge and detailed, and the plot goes out of its way to try and mislead the audience. Both efforts amount to naught.<br />
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Instead of a creepy haunted house that is depicted in the original, we’re presented with a mansion that looks like it was constructed by hundreds of skilled artisans. Its over-the-top attention to detail actually distracts from the whole point of the setting: it’s a scary haunted house.<br />
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But the film also tries to convince you the house isn't haunted…but it is! Surprise! Unfortunately, the well-paid cast does little to help carry the movie's inept script. Without the uniqueness between characters, we're faced with a bland and uninteresting variety of the same person dressed in different clothes.<br />
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Besides being an unnecessary remake, “The Haunting” remake goes one step further by just being an all-around bad film. And not just a bad movie, but a PG-13 film—in the 90s. There's nothing more to be said because there's not much going on with this movie. At least it made money.<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><i>Guess Who</i> (2005)</b></span><br />
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The original film, “Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner,” touched a very sensitive nerve for its time. In 1967, interracial marriages were still a very controversial thing [Sophia's buttinsky, here: they still are, if that<a href="http://time.com/4314046/old-navy-twitter-interracial-family-racist/" target="_blank"> Old Navy ad controversy</a> is any indication]. When the story’s couple comes home to meet mom and dad, they are understandably shocked. But at least their daughter has managed to catch herself a wealthy foreign doctor.<br />
The modern rendition seen in the remake titled “Guess Who” hopes to flip the premise on its side; instead of a white woman (Katharine Houghton) bringing home a black man (Sidney Poitier) to her white folks (Spencer Tracy and Katharine Hepburn), you have Zoe Saldana returning home with Ashton Kutcher meet with Bernie Mac and Judith Scott.<br />
While the film isn’t as awful as some of the others we’ve gone through, it fails to capture the essence of the original. It’s thoroughly inoffensive, barely pushes any bounds, and does little to inspire any sort of conversation regarding racial politics. It’s just another film that simply wasn’t necessary.<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><i>Footloose </i>(2011)</b></span><br />
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By all accounts, the original "Footloose" was set up in a way that should have yielded a terrible movie. Instead, it became an American classic long remembered for its fun dance scenes, good acting, and believable plot. Its focus on dance makes plenty of sense, being a film in the early 80s.<br />
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Having not learned from the mistakes of the “Psycho” remake, the movie again attempts to recreate (including in dialogue) many scenes from the original but does so poorly at it that one can hardly justify the film’s existence. The actors are less believable, particularly Ren who is depicted by Kenny Wormald and no longer looks lost, confused, or even well…young.<br />
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The dances have been updated to reflect the period, but that does little to help the movie along. Instead of the more innocent dances of the 20th century, we’re treated to the waist-to-waist grinding of modern dance that would make any Reverend protest, a plot element sadly wasted by the remake.<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><i>Total Recall </i>(2012)</b></span><br />
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Everything I say here I must first preface by admitting this one bias: I am someone who thoroughly enjoys cheesy Schwarzenegger films. And by all accounts, the first "Total Recall" did virtually no justice to its source material. It was truly an adventure of its own making; it was an 80s sci-fi shoot’em up complete with corny one-liners, explosions, and bad acting galore.<br />
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But what the original had in spades, the remake lacks by all accounts. With none of the original's fun, the remake sets about creating a plot with nearly identical key points depicted in a slightly different way. Instead of being largely on a Mars Colony, the film is portrayed on post-apocalyptic Earth.<br />
The change in secondary antagonist is equally questionable. The original featured a slew of “named” bad guys all going after Quaid, the protagonist. The remake replaces most of them with Quaid’s wife, leaving us with a decided shortage of characters to care about and a glut of faceless nobodies.<br />
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In some ways, the sets of the new film capture the feel of a "futuristic" society better, but there's just something very…forgettable about it all. While the memory of the original lives on well into the present, the remake has already faded into obscurity. Alas, another wasted opportunity.<br />
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Sequels and remakes are always a topic of debate. If you feel differently about one of these films or would like to discuss a different remake, post it in the comments. We’d love to hear from you!<br />
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About the Author: Isa is a critic in her own right, frequently blogging about her most and least favorite films. When not discussing entertainment, she spends her time writing about internet security and advocating online safety. To read more of her work, visit <a href="https://www.securethoughts.com/">SecureThoughts.com</a> or <a href="https://www.culturecoverage.com/">CultureCoverage.com</a>.Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-89218000066898066142016-05-18T21:51:00.000-07:002016-05-18T21:56:15.538-07:00We interrupt this regularly scheduled program for: Pre-Eclampsia Survivor Rant<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Okay, folks, I'm going to apologize in advance, because this is a rant and it has nothing to do with writing or fiction or anything else this blog is usually about. It's coming at you now because of two experiences I had this week, one on Facebook and one on Twitter.<br />
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So, for context, some facts up front:<br />
I am pregnant. This is my fourth pregnancy, but the second one was a loss. In my first pregnancy everything was hunky dory until about week 27 or so when I was diagnosed with pre-eclampsia. In short, that meant I had dangerously high blood pressure (that's not all there is to it, but that's the main thing I was dealing with). Ever watched <i>Downton Abbey</i>? Sybil died because she had eclampsia--what develops from pre-e if it's allowed to. Basically to avoid that you have to have the baby earlier than the due date. My son was induced at 37 weeks (normal pregnancies go to 40 weeks as a rule). Very luckily for me, we both came through without harm. Seizures were a big concern for me for the duration of those weeks, and I was put on bed rest and eventually magnesium--it was not a fun time.<br />
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No one knows what causes pre-e. Some of the most recent research suggests that not eating enough protein in early pregnancy may be a factor, but I have no way of saying if that was the case for me. I mean, I ate meat probably most days. But it's true that protein requirements for pregnant women are significantly higher than for the general population. Was I getting enough? I don't know.<br />
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Anyway, some things that have not been proven to cause pre-e are: being overweight, having high blood pressure when not pregnant, having blood sugar problems, whether or not you exercise, whether your diet is high in fiber, vegetables and fruit, and whether your diet is low in fat. But today on Twitter, I saw an account devoted to pre-e education that said this:<br />
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Okay, so I thought, are they talking to someone specific about their issues with their pre-e, or just everybody? So I tweeted them and asked.<br />
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To which they replied:<br />
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With the following infographic attached:<br />
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Now, I'm sure this person means well, but honestly, fuck them.<br />
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Because the original tweet might have been helpful if they were speaking directly to someone they knew with pre-e who actually had bad blood pressure, blood sugar, cholesterol, etc. Otherwise it's just a shitty thing to say. Why? It implies that people who get pre-e have some kind of control over it.<br />
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They don't.<br />
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No amount of dieting and exercise can protect a woman from developing pre-e. Dieting is really controversial these days and it's just plain stupid to go around telling people they need to diet. That's a conversation people have with their doctors. Stay out of it.<br />
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In my case I have naturally low BP when not pregnant. I have never had a problem with blood sugar, even while pregnant. My cholesterol is normal. All of it is normal. I <i>am</i> a size 20, though, so <i>clearly</i> I need to go through some sort of weight loss plan to be thin before I should consider having more kids. Because we all know what the outcome rates are for people who do weight loss programs. So what you're actually saying, Twitter twit, is that fat people just shouldn't have babies.<br />
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As for the oh-so helpful graphic, thanks a lot for all the stats telling me I'm going to die and develop terrible diseases. That's so helpful and good for my stress. It's not like I don't already worry about this pregnancy's impact on my body, now I have to worry about a pregnancy that happened five years ago, too. Fabulous.<br />
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People keep "liking" and retweeting the tweet with the infographic and that, dear readers, is why we are here.<br />
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Just in general, please don't tell fat people they need to lose weight. Don't you think most of us would go ahead and shed the pounds if we could? Don't you think we've tried? Actually, many people don't think fat people have tried, they think fat people are lazy asses who never try to do anything healthy. Truthfully, I <i>have</i> stopped trying. I maintain my weight at 220lbs. Why? Because the last time I tried, like, really <i>tried</i> to lose weight, I spent four months drinking two slim fast meals a day and having one actual meal. I also worked out every day for a minimum of an hour and half. I went down to 175lbs after three months and that was it. No more weight loss after that. I tried decreasing my daily intake of calories from 1400 to 1200. I tried adding a half an hour to my daily workouts. Nothing. The scale did not budge. And you know what? I was exhausted and miserable. So I went back to eating like I normally do, which is pretty healthy. I never drink soda or eat fast food. I eat a lot of vegetables, avoid overly processed foods with high fructose corn syrup and hydrogenated fats, etc. I make most of the food I eat from scratch. I exercise some, though not as much as I'd like. I've tracked my eating and basically I eat 500 calories a day more than the recommended amount, so that's why I'm heavy. But when I cut those calories out, we come back to the situation described above. What's the point? I'm not going to give myself headaches and feel wrecked and shitty every day so I can drop maybe twenty pounds and maintain my weight at 200lbs instead of 220. I'm just not enthused by that idea and considering my blood pressure is typically 110/70 and I don't have any signs of blood sugar issues... it's just not something I think about much anymore.<br />
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So that was Twitter today. A couple of days ago, there was Facebook.<br />
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I made the mistake of commenting on an NPR article that was warning pregnant women to wear long sleeves and long pants and bug spray because ZIKA IS COMING TO GET YOU.<br />
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And maybe it is, in Florida, I haven't checked the news stories recently. But here's the story I told in my comment on the article:<br />
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A couple of months ago my husband, two sons and I went to what is essentially a zoo nearby. When I was there I noticed the most unusual mosquito--it had stripey legs. Of course we all got bitten. When I got home I googled it and found out it's one of the two main types of mosquitoes that carry Zika. Now, I'm in Northern California and when I told my husband this he was like, "Meh, Zika happens in tropical places." But then a day or two later he and my older son both got sick, with flu-like symptoms and bloodshot eyes. Guess what? That sounds like Zika. So I told my OB about it. He was very nice and not at all condescending, but he basically told me I was being paranoid. At that time there had been no cases of people getting Zika in California or Oregon. All cases of Zika were people who had caught it elsewhere and traveled here.<br />
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I concluded my story by saying that I thought the NPR article was fear-mongering, and we shouldn't let these sorts of fears get the best of us, or something to that effect. So this guy answered me telling me I shouldn't blow off the risk and good luck with my pregnancy because I had probably been exposed to Zika.<br />
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I responded to him saying I don't need luck. I've had several ultrasounds (for completely unrelated reasons) and they've measured the baby's head multiple times and he's growing just fine.<br />
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To which several people then replied in so many words that clearly my ultrasounds were flawed and didn't pick up the birth defects and my baby would no doubt have microcephaly. One went so far as to say I would no doubt have to have a late-term abortion at 30 weeks. (As I write this I am 31 weeks.)<br />
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It was so important to those people to cling to their fears about Zika and their need to police pregnant women that they told me, a real person who is pregnant, that her baby is going to die at 30 weeks.<br />
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By the way, if I did get exposed to Zika and my baby was harmed, you know what can be done about it? Absolutely nothing.<br />
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But the thing is, I really don't believe that I was. I know my baby is okay. And I also know it probably wouldn't be good for him if slather myself in pesticides because I'm afraid of catching the Zika virus in an area of the world which, as far as I know, <i>still</i> hasn't had any local cases.<br />
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Okay I feel better. Thank you for reading this whole thing, it's a bear. But these are just two examples--people police pregnant woman all the time and it is SO TIRESOME. After several pregnancies, in some ways being preggo does get easier, but in others, NOT SO MUCH. Like when people think they are being helpful when they tell pregnant women how to live their lives.<br />
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Have you ever dealt with this sort of "well-meaning" bullshit?<br />
Do you feel entitled to tell pregnant women what to do and not to do to have a healthy pregnancy?<br />
Please, comment and let me know, though be careful if your answer to the second question is yes. I have pregnancy hormones and I know how to use them.<br />
<br />Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-61889547659271556892016-04-25T13:20:00.001-07:002016-04-25T13:22:00.986-07:00Embracing the "Ugly" as Beautiful: Melisandre in Game of Thrones, Season 6<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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My husband and I watched the first episode of <i>Game of Thrones</i> season 6 last night. There were several moments that shocked or surprised me. The big reveal at the end of the episode was not one of them.<br />
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It's not that I somehow secretly suspected that the Red Woman, AKA Melisandre, is actually centuries old. It's that I don't care. I mean, really, unless her removing the necklace actually leads to something plot related (will she die? will the necklace somehow resurrect Jon? will Thorne find it and put it on, then get strangled by it? I'd like to see that). However, the Twitterverse is all... atwitter over it. People all over the internet are extremely excited about this new TWIST.<br />
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From <a href="http://www.eonline.com/news/759393/game-of-thrones-premiere-ends-with-fairytale-twist-we-did-not-see-coming" target="_blank">an article on e-online</a>:<br />
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Plenty of other articles were tweeted announcing their intention to discuss this big twist.<br />
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How is it a twist? To me, a plot twist means something that significantly impacts <i>the plot. </i>So she's old. I mean, seriously. She has wrinkles, she's got saggy breasts, she's lost most of her hair. Okay. And?<br />
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Which brings me to the other reason people are all freaking out: OMG, the Red Woman is actually old and NOT HOT.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Yes, that's Sam from <i>Supernatural</i>. It was actually a gif cycling between his face and Dean's equally horrified face.</td></tr>
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And my personal favorite:<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Because it's totes cool to pull your pants down for the young Red Woman, who advocates burning children alive.</td></tr>
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Let me get something out of the way. I get it. We as a culture are so flooded with images of "perfect" women's bodies that it must be a big surprise and shock when a show gives a rare glimpse of a woman's body that doesn't fit in. But come on, people. Not every body you see has to be evaluated for sexual attractiveness.<br />
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I like all kinds of bodies for different reasons. There are certain female bodies I find sexually attractive. The elderly body of last night's episode is not one of them, but in all sincerity, that didn't even enter my mind when I looked at her. Young Melisandre took off her clothes and I admired her beauty (though the character has always seriously creeped me out and I don't find her sexually attractive as a result), and then she changed into the crone, and my thoughts were along the lines of, "Wow, they found an elderly woman with very smooth features, much like the younger actress."* They did. The elderly woman shown wasn't hideous by any stretch of the imagination. People on Twitter have had to go find images from other movies and shows to express their horror at the change.<br />
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The fact is, elderly Melisandre may not be sexually attractive, but she's also not disgusting. She's just old. Her body has no blemishes. Okay, the sparsity of hair on her head isn't pretty, but it's not horrifying. She's clean. And I would go so far as to say, she's even beautiful--not in a sexual way, not in a hot way, but in terms of being a beautiful example of an elderly body. The slump of her shoulders and her facial expression convey deep sadness and disillusionment--the power of the emotions they show is beautiful.<br />
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But then, I tend to love things like this:<br />
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This sculpture is by Camille Claudel, a female artist who hit her peak around the turn of the 20th century in Paris. I studied her quite a bit some years ago because I intended to write my master's thesis about her. She had a fascinating, tragic life, and this sculpture is one expression of her experiences. It represents Clotho, the fate who spins the thread of human life--not even Atropos, the one who snips the thread and ends lives. Claudel saw the <i>spinner </i>of life as this twisted, withered crone caught in her own threads, which also seem to be her hair.<br />
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Claudel eventually became paranoid and reclusive. Ultimately her family institutionalized her for the last 30 years of her life, though whether that was an ethical choice is a matter of serious debate among those interested in her.<br />
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I find this statue of hers beautiful and powerful. Obviously, Clotho as Claudel depicted her is not sexually attractive. But she is an expression of pure suffering--a work of art that succeeds vividly in what it attempts.<br />
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Melisandre's old body isn't even close to as twisted and withered as Clotho's in Claudel's interpretation, and it shouldn't be the same, because what's being expressed isn't the same. Claudel's Clotho is a personification of Claudel's rage and confusion at life--and possibly gives hints at Claudel's mental illness, though in 1893 she wasn't exhibiting obvious symptoms yet. Elderly Melisandre conveys the character's grief and despair at the way things have turned out, not according to her visions at all. She is a personification of loss of hope.<br />
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I actually did find <a href="http://www.theatlantic.com/entertainment/archive/2016/04/game-of-thrones-season-six-episode-one-review-red-woman/479580/" target="_blank">one article, at theatlantic.com</a>, that addressed the scene the way I felt it needed to be addressed:<br />
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The issue I'm having with the more common reaction, I think more than any other, is that the response most people on Twitter are having to seeing Melisandre's elderly body completely misses this point. They are so focused on "OMG NOT HOT" that they aren't asking themselves what the scene actually <i>means</i>. <i>Why</i> has Melisandre chosen to remove her necklace? Is she giving up? Is she going to die? Does this mean Jon is doomed? Not to mention his allies at Castle Black, who talk specifically about how powerful Melisandre is moments before the necklace scene.<br />
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In the e-online article I excerpted above, they <i>do</i> ask what it means, but then they ask what Melisandre has been doing on order to stay young, and how old she really is. They then <i>actually</i> state that they've never been so interested in Melisandre subplots not involving Jon Snow. Are you serious right now? I mean, sure, it's great when female characters are interesting without being props for male characters. If you've read this blog at all you know how into that I am. But <i>how many</i> separate character plots are there in <i>GoT</i> these days? It's getting to be as bad as later seasons of <i>Lost</i>. I would really prefer if Melisandre's role in the show remained tied to the established plotlines she's already attached to, and that pretty much means I want one question answered about her: is she going to raise Jon, or is she going to die/fail somehow? If we're going to focus on female characters, I'm just fine with Sansa, Arya, Cersei, Brienne, Margaery, Osha, and Daenerys getting the deeper storylines. I really don't like Ellaria, so she's off the list, too. I don't care about the larger picture when it comes to her or Melisandre. I have enough characters I <i>do </i>care about--and some of my favorites are male, so my list is actually even longer than the one in the sentence above. That's a lot for the show creators to keep track of without adding more.<br />
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Anyway, my point is this. I wish people could stop flipping out about a non-perfect body long enough to look past its supposed imperfections. They might appreciate it for what it does show us in a powerful way, and they might also start asking much more interesting and relevant questions.<br />
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How about you, were you shocked/horrified by the elderly Melisandre reveal?<br />
What do you think of art and other mediums that show elderly female (and male, why not) bodies?<br />
Can things typically seen as "ugly" actually be beautiful? <br />
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* It has occurred to me that they simply aged Carice van Houten's face, but that doesn't address the parallels with her body. I'm not saying they are the same by any stretch of the imagination, just that they had a similar smoothness.Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-28995983915627629722016-04-09T23:27:00.000-07:002016-04-10T07:12:51.821-07:00Machiavelli, Mary Sue, Supernatural, and Gale from The Hunger GamesWhat do all of these have in common, you ask? Allow me to elucidate, as <a href="http://disney.wikia.com/wiki/Scat_Cat" target="_blank">Scat Cat</a> once said.<br />
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Actually Mary Sue isn't really going to fit with the rest. She's the "one who doesn't belong," if you will. Which is ironic, considering that's essentially her role in bad fanfiction. But back to the first question before we let her take over everything.<br />
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Instead, let's look at Niccolò Machiavelli, <a href="http://amzn.to/1qfYniW" target="_blank"><i>Supernatural</i></a>, and Gale from <a href="http://amzn.to/25SbnvS" target="_blank"><i>The Hunger Games</i></a> in yet another post about violence in fiction. If you're curious, I've addressed violence in fiction before, mainly <a href="http://sophia-martin.blogspot.com/2013/06/wrangling-fictional-characters.html" target="_blank">here</a> and <a href="http://sophia-martin.blogspot.com/2013/04/grimdark-and-violence-in-fantasy.html" target="_blank">here</a>. It's been a while, so I hope it doesn't feel like I'm obsessed with the topic, but in reality I do spend a lot of time thinking about it, and may even be a bit obsessed. I am concerned with whether it's ethical to portray violence in an entertaining manner. It seems to me that to be effective, violence <i>must</i> inherently be cruel. I'm going to discuss why I think so here.<br />
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Now before you get annoyed with me because Machiavelli didn't write fiction, let me just address his part in this discussion. In my experience, people who have heard of Machiavelli and who reference him tend to be a bit harsh in their judgment of him. Just in case you aren't really familiar with him,
he was a Renaissance writer who created a kind of manual for rulers
entitled <i><a href="http://amzn.to/1Ymv0GQ" target="_blank">The Prince</a> </i>in 1513. From wikipedia:<br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><b>"Machiavellianism" is a widely used negative term to characterize unscrupulous politicians of the sort Machiavelli described most famously in <i>The Prince</i>. Machiavelli described immoral behavior, such as dishonesty and killing innocents, as being normal and effective in politics. He even seemed to endorse it in some situations. The book itself gained notoriety when some readers claimed that the author was teaching evil, and providing "evil recommendations to tyrants to help them maintain their power."</b></span><br />
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See what I mean? Harsh. But I read <i>The Prince</i> some years ago, and Machiavelli doesn't, in my opinion at least, advocate violence. He does take a practical approach to ruling. In one passage he talks about how to administer violence--that may not be how he puts it (it's been a long time since I read it), but the gist was, if you're going to do violence to people for some reason as a ruler (put down an uprising, say) you have to do it as quickly and as extremely as possible. You should always draw out <b>benevolence</b>, because people have short memories when it comes to benevolence. Violence they remember much more clearly. So to avoid becoming unpopular, don't draw it out. Do it thoroughly, do it fast, and make it memorable. So he's not going to back a ruler like Joffrey, for instance, (should I revise the title of this post to include <i>Game of Thrones</i>? Too much?) because the violence Joff does is constant and he pretty much has no idea about the whole benevolence aspect of ruling.<br />
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For the purposes of this discussion, I'd like to take Machiavelli's advice to rulers and apply it to violence in fiction in general. Meaning, in a fictional setting at least, the most effective violence is quick, thorough, and memorable.<br />
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Is violence always most effective when administered quickly, thoroughly, and memorably? Good question. Is "quickly, thoroughly, and memorably" the same as cruel? Another good question. And can one categorize such effective, potentially always cruel violence as good or evil? Ethical or unethical? Also a good question. These questions bring me to Gale.<br />
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It's been four years since I read <i>The Hunger Games,</i> so please correct me in the comments if I misremember something. Also, I'm going to be talking in detail here, so, spoilers ahead. You have been warned.<br />
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Specifically, I want to talk about <i>Mockingjay </i>and Gale's attitude towards violence in the rebellion. I really enjoyed the books and one reason they resonated so well for me was the way Collins addresses violence. She specifically questions the way we voyeuristically use violence as entertainment. On top of that, she questions the use of violence by the rebels. This is significant, because it would be easy to simply accept their use of violence as necessary, ostensibly a legitimate use of violence since the rebellion intends to overthrow a terrible regime. To bring it even closer to home for the reader, Collins has Gale, a main supporting character and love interest from the beginning, display a talent for designing weapons. Katniss becomes uncomfortable with how brutal the weapons he develops are. They also have disagreements because Gale doesn't have a lot of scruples about targeting areas where innocents will be killed. Ultimately, Gale is at least somewhat responsible for the death of Prim, Katniss's sister. Katniss's love of Prim is the reason she went to the Hunger Games to begin with. The importance of Prim's life cannot be overstated. Gale's talent and inclination for violence end Prim's life, undoing everything Katniss sacrificed for. It's never clear whether he is directly or indirectly responsible, but at the very least, the bombing that killed Prim was based on his design, using the ingrained belief that people in their society have that little parachutes bring good things, rather than bad. The way the bomb drops are timed, the intent is to kill first responders, and Prim is acting as a first responder when she dies.<br />
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Heavy stuff. The message is: to be effective, violence must be cruel. And, I would go so far as to say, it must be evil. Does it fit into the Machiavellian "fast, thorough, and memorable"?<br />
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I think so. The bombings orchestrated by the rebellion are not part of a long, drawn-out punishment-fest, unless I misremember. They are surgical strikes, quick, incisive, and brutal. They certainly are effective and memorable. By targeting first responders, they are all the more effective in crippling the enemy. But they are not ethical.<br />
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Do the ends justify the means? Or the reverse? Does the process of setting aside ethical considerations in the winning of a war taint the outcome irretrievably? Collins raises these questions, and I have a great deal of respect for her for doing that.<br />
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Okay, so looking at Machiavelli's approach to administering violence and Collins's questioning of violence as entertainment and its use in effective, unethical ways in a rebellion, what I come away with is a sense that violence in fiction is really problematic. In most fiction, violence occurs either to harm the protagonist (and get the story moving) or it is administered by the protagonist as a righteous act (to punish the bad guys and achieve the end goal). I don't know about you, but often I really enjoy stories with both kinds of violence.<br />
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Which brings me to <i>Supernatural.</i><br />
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<i>Supernatural </i>is a good example of fiction I really enjoy and am a fan of, but that <a href="http://unquietpirate.tumblr.com/post/70909424937/how-to-be-a-fan-of-problematic-things-social" target="_blank">I have to admit is problematic in a lot of ways</a>*. The gender stuff is cringe-worthy, for instance (the absolute worst thing the guys can call one another is a woman). For a couple of seasons there were essentially no female characters at all, except for the occasional flashback with Mary Winchester. In terms of LGBT stuff, the show is usually pretty weak, too (notable exception, the episode with Felicia Day). Characters continuously go out of their way to assert their heterosexuality--so much so it really starts to feel like they are protesting too much, you know? The race stuff isn't always great, either, as the the vast majority of people of color on the show are evil (at least up to season 7, which I just finished). Rufus is a notable and lonely exception, and he's dead by season 6. We see him again after in flashbacks and otherworldly moments, but overall he's only in a handful of episodes.<br />
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Anyway. <i>Supernatural </i>is also a very violent show. My husband, who is sensitive to violence, can't watch it. The violence in the show doesn't really bother me on a visceral level because it's so over the top. <i>Jessica Jones</i> was much harder to watch. The special effects guys on <i>Supernatural</i> are <i>really</i> into blood splatters. And in terms of how violence is used as a story device, I actually enjoy it. There are scenes where the main characters torture bad guys, and these don't bother me at all. Sometimes I even <i>want </i>to see the bad guy <i>du jour</i> suffer some serious punishment at the hands of the Winchesters. Ruby springs to mind, oh my gosh did I want to see her die. Not Dick Roman, though---I just enjoyed James Patrick Stuart's portrayal of him <i>so much</i>, I didn't want him to die. Anyway. This enjoyment I experience of the violence in <i>Supernatural</i> is very much at odds with my sense of ethics and whether it's okay for violence to be a form of entertainment. And whether it's ever ethical to use violence in an effective/cruel manner, as explained by Machiavelli and illustrated by the use of Gale's weapons designs in <i>Mockingjay</i>.<br />
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I continue to watch and enjoy <i>Supernatural</i> because I long ago accepted that I will end up enjoying problematic fiction, and as long as I am willing to admit that it's problematic, as long as I am willing to discuss how it's problematic and not dismiss concerns raised by others about it, then I'm being ethical about it.<br />
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But it's one thing to enjoy and consume problematic fiction. It's quite another to produce it.<br />
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I've <a href="http://sophia-martin.blogspot.com/2012/07/adventure-stories-orientalism.html" target="_blank">blogged before</a> about the trickiness of writing in a genre like dieselpunk, for instance, because of the genre's long tradition of orientalism. It's actually probably the blog entry that got the most response over the course of this blog's life. I wrote the entry working from the assumption that if you are writing true dieselpunk, avoiding orientalism is really tricky because in a dieselpunk story, the main characters are white and western** and in most stories they encounter mysterious, exotic, dangerous foes/locations that stereotype and otherwise disparage real non-western** cultures and people of color. The resulting discussion was really illuminating for me, at least, because others pointed out that some of my basic assumptions where flawed. There's no reason that a main character of today's dieselpunk fiction has to be white and western. Anyway. My point is, it's really worthwhile to discuss these ethical dilemmas, because people can shine a light and provide a perspective that I'm lacking. So here I am with my latest dilemma:<br />
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How do you use violence in fiction in an ethical manner?<br />
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That was the question that spurred the writing of <a href="http://amzn.to/1qB8Tlm" target="_blank"><i>After the Fall</i></a>, the second book in my decopunk dystopian trilogy (after <a href="http://amzn.to/1RYAljD" target="_blank"><i>The City Darkens</i></a>). I'd been reading a lot about grimdark and its popularity in fantasy fiction. Some writers were <a href="http://www.nerds-feather.com/2013/02/grimmy-grimmy-dark-dark.html" target="_blank">really problematizing it</a>, especially the use of sexual violence as titillating horror. And I asked myself, how can you portray sexual violence in a way that would remove all possible titillation? And that gave rise to the concept of a scene in which rather than describing what was happening to the person being assaulted, I zoomed in on a witness to the scene who is hiding, terrified. I focused on her reactions and mental state. I think it was effective without being titillating, though you'd have to read it yourself to see if you agree. For me the whole book became an exploration of violence and whether it can be righteous and justified. The main character of <i>After the Fall</i>, Ginna, is a basically good person, unlike Myadar, the main character of <i>The City Darkens</i>, who really is more neutral in moral alignment--Myadar's not driven to do good so much as serve her own interests. Ginna witnesses the aforementioned assault and essentially makes a deal with the god Luka (we'd call him Loki in our world), god of chaos, to become an instrument of divine wrath (although there's actually more going on there, but you'll have to read the book if you want to know about that). Soon she experiences a loss of control when confronted with those who are perpetrating violence around the ruins of the city in which she lives, and when she comes back to herself, she finds she has slaughtered them.<br />
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Ginna is seriously distressed by this, and ultimately after she witnesses and survives yet another extreme act of violence, she cuts herself off from the part of herself that taps this divine wrath. After that, Ginna just isn't very powerful anymore. She tries to do the right thing and she tries to help those she sees as innocents, but she isn't successful.<br />
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I've received some critiques of the novel that were pretty discouraging to me. Two different readers criticized Ginna for being too passive. That critique brings me to the Mary Sue connection, but let me set that aside one more time and come back to it in a minute. Instead, let me address what one reader told me: that all these terrible things happen to Ginna and those around her, and she never triumphs against the perpetrators, so the book is frustrating. It's a valid critique. I see that. Ultimately I wrote the book that way because for me as a writer, the purpose of the book was to explore whether I could write about a good protagonist who perpetrates violence righteously in an ethical, non-titillating way, and what I found was that I couldn't.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Really Subway? REALLY?</td></tr>
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I'm not saying it's not possible. I'm saying I haven't figured out how to do it in my writing. I mean, I think Collins did an amazing job dealing with violence in <i>The Hunger Games</i> trilogy. So much so that I was really taken aback by the marketing of the movies, particularly <i>Catching Fire,</i> in which YOU TOO could win a Victory Tour. It's like, really, guys? Did you read the books? No? ::facepalm:: <br />
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So part of the reason I've been so stuck when it comes to writing book 3 of my own trilogy is the whole, how do I do this? How do I give Ginna back her violent power, but have her be essentially good, and not make the violence titillating and feed the idea that it's okay to be entertained by it?<br />
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As an aside:<br />
You understand that this blog post is entirely focused on violence <i>in fiction</i>, right? I'm not even going to start to address whether violence is ever justified in real life. I really haven't figured that one out at all. I love Gandhi and Malcom X and what they each stood for, you know? I've had plenty of moments where I'd choose violence--but would I be right to do so? Real life is far, far too complex and complicated for easy answers.<br />
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Back to the questions at hand:<br />
In fiction, it's much too common for violence to go unquestioned and unchallenged. Sam and Dean can use torture as a method of interrogation/punishment because they are only ever going to use it against nonhuman monsters. That's what makes it okay. But try telling that to my husband.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Dean waterboarding a demon with holy water, IIRC.</td></tr>
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"No, really, honey, it's okay that they're cutting into that guy helplessly tied to a chair screaming his head off, because he's not human. He's a demon."<br />
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My husband's response would be a slow nod, and something like, "Sure, sweetie. But I don't want to watch it, okay?" He's very sweet and nonjudgmental of my shows. But underneath that, I know what he's thinking (because I've read many of the same books he has, I guess). Making the victims of the Winchesters' violence nonhuman is just an easy way to bypass any questions about whether torture is ever okay (even in fiction). Same goes for any other violence employed by a righteous hero against villains, human or not. In <i>Rambo IV</i>, <a href="https://flowingdata.com/2008/02/22/rambo-kill-counts-from-parts-i-ii-iii-and-iv/" target="_blank">Rambo can kill 3 people per minute (after his first kill)</a> because he's the good guy and they are the bad guys and it's satisfying to see bad guys get killed. After all, we all have people in our own lives who richly deserve punishment of some kind (maybe not so extreme as <i>death</i>, but there are slaps going to waste among some folks at my work right now, I can tell you...). But each and every bad guy who gets killed by a good guy is someone's child. Some have brothers or sisters, friends, children, etc., who love them and will grieve them when they don't come home. People, even in fiction, should never be easily disposable.<br />
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So that's one problem I'm facing with book 3. How do I embrace Ginna's talent for violence? Does she somehow magically pass it on to Myadar? Myadar wouldn't have nearly the trouble Ginna does with it, because Myadar isn't fundamentally good. But where would that take the story? I don't think I'd like what Myadar would do with that kind of power (it's actually an interesting idea--I may go there for a bit--let Myadar have the wrath and Ginna be unburdened, but ultimately Ginna would have to take it back, because she wouldn't like what Myadar would do with it, either).<br />
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The other major problem--aside from questions I've been wrestling with to do with POV and who my narrator(s) should be--is this criticism I got from two readers about Ginna being passive.<br />
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Mary Sue, this is your moment.<br />
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I was reading some blog articles today that addressed the popular complaint among book (and, I would add, movie) reviewers that a female protagonist is a Mary Sue. Here's <a href="http://thezoe-trope.blogspot.com/2011/08/you-can-stuff-your-mary-sue-where-sun.html?spref=tw" target="_blank">one</a> of these blog posts, and here's <a href="http://seanan-mcguire.livejournal.com/396047.html" target="_blank">another</a>. It's apparently very common, and I remember seeing someone on a forum say that Phedre from the Kushiel books is a Mary Sue, for instance. One blogger <a href="http://thezoe-trope.blogspot.com/2011/08/you-can-stuff-your-mary-sue-where-sun.html?spref=tw" target="_blank">addressed this tendency as a pet peeve of hers</a>, because to her, the label is often misapplied, and it's too vague to be meaningful anyway. She felt that often the ways people apply the label are contradictory--the character is too perfect, the character is too flawed, etc. And really what underlies the complaint is that the character is female, because if a male character had all the same characteristics, there would be no complaint. I've certainly seen some of that with Rey from <i>The Force Awakens</i>. A lot of Star Wars fans are very frustrated with how quick she is to learn the Force skills she displays, and that she also has fighting skills, and also has brilliant mechanical skills. It's possible that there would be complaints if Rey was a guy, but I'm betting there wouldn't be as many. Ultimately I agree with Erik Kain, who said that it isn't that <a href="http://www.forbes.com/sites/erikkain/2016/01/04/no-rey-from-star-wars-the-force-awakens-is-not-a-mary-sue/#3c94f5f9d45b" target="_blank">Rey is a Mary Sue, it's that the whole movie is so rushed</a>. The good guys have a three minute brainstorming session that leads to the solution to destroying the new and improved Death Star, folks. The filmmakers tried to jam too much in to 135 minutes.<br />
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This accusation isn't restricted to characters who display some aspects of Mary Sueness, either. Apparently there are people out there who will accuse <i>Hermione Granger</i> of being a Mary Sue. Meanwhile Harry Potter is this kid raised in a closet who somehow manages to be The Ultimate Hero <i>and </i>good at Quidditch, a sport he's never even heard of, without even trying. Don't get me wrong, I love me some Harry Potter, but come on, double standard, anyone?<br />
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In one of these articles I read, maybe in the comments section, I'm not even sure anymore, someone made the point that being "too passive" is a flaw people throw at female characters who are good, and that struck a chord with me. And then in another spot someone talked about how deeply discouraging and stifling it is to be a female author and try to write a character who <i>won't</i> be accused by someone of being a Mary Sue.<br />
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To be clear, no one accused Ginna of being a Mary Sue. The feedback I got was much more constructive. But this complaint about her being passive has really bothered me, because I don't think she's passive at all. She <i>does</i> stuff. She makes a deal with Luka. She goes on wrath-fueled rampages. She uses her wits and talents to survive in a very dangerous setting. She puts herself at great risk to protect those she loves and those she sees as innocents in danger. The trouble isn't that she's passive, it's that she's <i>unsuccessful</i>. She doesn't actually manage to save most of the people she tries to save. She doesn't manage to stop bad things from happening. She doesn't save the day.<br />
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Why doesn't she succeed? Well, that's my cynicism and frustration with the world at work, I think. Plus the sense that I have that in the second installment of a trilogy, it works for the ending to be unhappy<i>.</i> Look at <i>The Empire Strikes Back</i>, for one example of a second part that most people agree is the most powerful installment of the three original films. I'd argue that that's <i>because</i> it's so dark. But my cynicism <i>is </i>at work in <i>After the Fall</i>, I fully admit that. And having identified that, I really want book 3 to remedy it--what I mean to say is, I want Ginna to win in book 3. I want her to triumph over her adversaries in a major way.<br />
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Which brings me back to my violence dilemma.<br />
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How does Ginna win against the fascist tyrants who rule in Helesey without turning the wrath back on? And if I can enjoy shows and novels where a good protagonist is violent, why can't I figure out a way to <i>write </i>a good protagonist that is violent? Grumble.<br />
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What do you think of the questions I raise here?<br />
Do you ever think about the portrayal of violence in entertainment?<br />
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*The link takes you to an article that's been reblogged because the original link I'd saved doesn't seem to work anymore. The original article, "How to be a Fan of Problematic Things," is by Rachael at the Social Justice League.<br />
**I use "western" and "non-western" here despite the objections some have raised (after all, who defines what's east and west?) because I'm talking about orientalism, a phenomenom in literature (and I would argue, many other forms of media) which pits cultures from the East (the "Orient" means the East) against dominant cultures of the West. However, I also tend to extend the meaning of orientalism to include the stereotyping of cultures not traditionally viewed as part of the East, such as South American cultures. Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-52394435600480384292016-03-28T13:42:00.002-07:002016-04-07T00:32:34.688-07:00Deadpool -- I didn't love it, Part 2: The Details<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I know you all have been biting your nails, waiting to see when I would <i>finally</i> get around to writing the second part of this review.* Well, here it is, folks. Some deeper thoughts about a couple of aspects of the very popular <i>Deadpool</i>. For the overview I wrote shortly after I saw the movie, <a href="http://sophia-martin.blogspot.com/2016/02/deadpool-i-didnt-love-it-part-1-overview.html" target="_blank">go here</a>. Long story short, I found the movie disappointing, in that it really fell short of doing anything original. With no further ado...<br />
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SPOILERS GALORE. <br />
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It's been so long since I wrote the first half that I'm not even sure what I was talking about when I said something that happened with Vanessa surprised me. It certainly isn't her overall arch. She starts out as a prostitute (or does she? Some have speculated that everything in that first dialogue between her and DP is a lie, and therefore she isn't really a sex worker at all. That would be too bad, as it does make her more interesting, imo). But by the time DP comes back from the experiment that turns him into a mutant, she's become a waitress. Because on some level, everyone agrees (everyone being the filmmakers and their target audience, ie, not me) that being a sex worker is fine as long as you aren't in a committed relationship. Even though Vanessa thinks DP is dead, we have to believe she's still being faithful to him. Had she been one of the strippers in the bar where she works as a server, I would have been far more impressed. But even that's not the same as hooking. I've seen <a href="http://www.bustle.com/articles/144905-9-feminist-deadpool-moments-from-negasonics-appearance-to-vanessas-sex-positive-attitude" target="_blank">places where much is made of</a> Vanessa as "sex positive" and "not ashamed to be a sex worker" and in fact the narrative doesn't support the latter at all. Sex positive, sure. But you take sex positive and apply it to most female leads and you're not going to get very far in terms of feminist statements. Does she like sex? Sure. It's great that she seems assertive about what she wants, too. But she's still just a "hot chick," as the opening titles define her, whose main role is to be the hero's prize and the damsel in distress.<br />
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So none of that surprised me, at all. Probably it was the <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pegging_%28sexual_practice%29" target="_blank">pegging</a>. That <i>is </i>a surprising moment, and maybe one of the only moments of true originality in the film. Why? Well, throughout the scenes depicting DP and Vanessa's romance, it's clear that DP wants more than anything to please her. That's certainly unusual. Most films with the dominant male hero (super or not) show women eager to please <i>him</i>, or some variation. They orbit the hero, not the other way around. It's not even a macho, "Look what a hot stud I am" kind of eager to please with DP. He's just sincerely motivated. And he is clearly willing to do things with Vanessa that most straight cis men don't consider doing, such as, most blatantly, the pegging. It's a pity he doesn't enjoy it, and the tone of the scene is joking, not sexy, but I guess you have to expect the filmmakers to pull back from <i>really</i> showing pegging as a potentially pleasurable act. The core of homophobia, <a href="http://amzn.to/1LUNe1g" target="_blank">some have noted</a> (and I agree), is misogyny. There's no sin like being a woman. For a man to lose his masculinity by taking on the role of the receiver in sex is the worse possible thing. So it's a big deal that they have Vanessa, a woman, top DP like that. But to have him enjoy it...? That would be irredeemable.<br />
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And it's a real shame, for a couple of reasons. First off, I think it's actually great that the film portrays DP as so motivated to pleasure Vanessa--apparently the target audience for the film is 15 year old boys, and I'm told they tend to get their sex education mostly from porn. One big problem with this, aside from getting <i>really</i> skewed expectations, is that most porn is not about guys sincerely trying to please women. There may be a category of "Look what a hot stud I am, I can please a woman" porn (I'm not that well-versed, tbh) but the plain, clear eagerness to please that we see in <i>Deadpool</i> is no doubt a very, very rare thing. So if 15 year old boys watch the sex montage and get the idea that having that kind of attitude is cool, hurray for the filmmakers! They've done a good deed. Sincerely wanting to please your partner is golden, after all. So it's really a pity that they have to show DP uncomfortable, and ultimately the object of audience derision, in the pegging moment. What kind of reward for eagerness to please your partner is that? The moment is only what, maybe three seconds long? They couldn't have shown him enjoying it, the way Vanessa enjoys herself in other moments in the montage? Incidentally, aside from a cruel little smile, she doesn't seem to get off on the pegging, either. And they do it because they are celebrating holidays, and it's something like "National Woman's Day" or something similar. Like, okay, women get to top a man once a year, hardy har har. And neither of the participants will really like it, because it's such a backwards thing to do, hee hee hee. Which brings me to my next point.<br />
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Another reason it's too bad DP doesn't enjoy the pegging (and, in the minds of Hollywood filmmakers, <i>can't </i>be shown to enjoy it) is because everyone thinks (see above definition of "everyone") that if a guy enjoys any kind of anal stimulation, he must be gay. And we can't have a gay main character in an action movie, now can we? This is all the more disappointing because from what I've read, the DP comic book character is supposed to be pansexual. Not just bi! Pan. Of course, to the comic book writers, this means he'll try anything with anyone or anything. I'm fairly new to the idea of pansexuality, but I do like the concept, and might even go so far as to identify that way. But I do see some folks (even some who consider <i>themselves</i> pan) defining it as an "I'll fuck anything" approach to sex, and that's a problem. Biphobia has a long history of equating bisexuality to promiscuity and inability to be monogamous (and not in a good way). And of course in more virulently homophobic circles, you've got the homosexual sex = pedophilia idea. As if being attracted to men and women makes a person unable to commit, inherently dishonest, fickle, oversexed, dangerous, and predatory. Looks like this pansexual = will fuck anything concept is the same, only multiplied by ten. However, I've also seen it defined, instead, as meaning one isn't restricted in their attractions to one or even two genders. Meaning as a pansexual, someone like DP would go for men, women, transfolk, and gender queer and gender fluid people. But not children, mkay? Or animals. Or other potential hook ups that are upsetting for many good reasons. It would have been nice to see <i>that</i> pansexuality portrayed in <i>Deadpool</i>--nice? Hell, it would have been revolutionary. But the most we get are jokes about how DP has a crush on Wolverine, a masturbation scene involving a plush unicorn, and a cartoon at the end where he rubs a unicorn's horn until a rainbow shoots out.<br />
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As an aside, I did appreciate the historical value of that cartoon. I don't think a lot of people know that the unicorn's horn was conceived as a phallic symbol. That's why unicorns go for virgins, folks, and vice versa.<br />
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Anyway.<br />
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My point is that I do get why the filmmakers shied away from really showing any kind of pansexuality, bisexuality, or homosexuality in the film, but it's disappointing. I wonder if they aren't totally underestimating their audience. From what I've read, Ryan Reynolds, the actor who portrayed DP, and who is supposedly one of the driving forces behind the making of <i>Deadpool</i>, has stated that he's like to see DP have a relationship with a male character. If he's comfortable with it, maybe the fans would be, too? God, I can't wait for the day when showing a M/M relationship with <i>main</i> characters in a fun Hollywood action movie isn't too much to ask.<br />
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And both characters get to survive the movie, too. That would be something.<br />
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Okay, so I said I'd address another small moment (really, several small moments) that surprised me, and that was with Colossus. He's the CGI character, all metal and brawn, with a Russian accent and a hair cut (can you can a tin head of molded hair a haircut?) that strongly evokes Dolph Lundgren in Rocky IV. But while Lundgren embodies a kind of unnaturally extreme masculinity driven to destroy the natural masculinity of Rocky, Colossus is, instead, a voice of reason/heroicism. So that in itself shows we've come a long way since Rocky IV. Note that I realize this is probably not news to the comic book readers. I don't read the comics, though, so this is my only experience with Colossus. Anyway, there's the way he is that's kind of interesting and different, and then there's the puking. If I understand correctly, one of Colossus's attributes is that he vomits at the sight of blood. Now there's an incongruous quality in a guy who physically embodies the hypermasculine. So kudos for choosing a character that has that kind of inherent contradiction going on. I do think that's worth noting, even if it's certainly not central to the plot. There <i>are</i> these moments, these attempts to turn expectations on their heads.<br />
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We also see a lot of male nudity, and often not in a flattering way, too. That's unusual, especially when an effort is made to avoid showing female nudity. It's almost always the other way around. So I have to acknowledge that, too. It's just a shame you can have a film with these cool little nuggets, but they don't add up to anything in the end. In the end the plot is mediocre and there really isn't anything revolutionary about any of it.<br />
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What did you think of <i>Deadpool</i>? Did you find it revolutionary?<br />
What do you think of the way it addressed DP's pansexuality? Did you find Vanessa to have more value as a feminist heroine than I did? What are your thoughts on Colossus?<br />
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*In case sarcasm isn't your thing, I am actually grounded in reality and realize that this review's second part is way too late for anyone to really care about it. I just like knowing I finished what I started.Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-33738052914148687692016-02-14T21:01:00.000-08:002016-02-14T22:19:51.728-08:00Deadpool -- I didn't love it, Part 1: The Overview<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I didn't hate it, either, but after all the hype that seems to be building exponentially on Twitter, I really went into it expecting more. Which, I believe, is part of why I wasn't that impressed. I think if I'd gone into <i>Deadpool</i> without hearing about how hilarious
it was and how original and irreverent and surprising and all of that, I
might have actually found it funnier, more surprising, and maybe even
original. Though ultimately the conclusion I have come to is that <i>Deadpool</i> is <b>unusual</b> but not <b>original</b>.<br />
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But before I go further with this review...<br />
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HERE THERE BE SPOILERS. LOTS AND LOTS OF SPOILERS.<br />
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Anyway.<br />
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The first unusual bit comes with the opening, a frozen scene of a car accident which might as well have the word (abbreviation?) "FUBAR" written across it. As the camera winds and pans out, what appear to be credits begin scrolling, except that they are... unusual. Instead of actual names, they are things like, "A Hot Chick," "A British Villain," "A Moody Teen," "A CGI Character"... the producers are listed as "Asshats" and the writers as "the True Heroes Here." So that was cute. Except all the cliches promised are delivered without a twist. I was hoping, I guess, that there would be something interesting and unexpected about the hot chick, the British villain, and the moody teen. But the hot chick, played by Morena Baccarin (I'd watch a much crappier movie to see her) is just a hot chick. Sure, she doesn't take shit from an asshole in a bar, and eventually she does stab a villain (doesn't kill him though), but ultimately all she is, is a hot chick. A damsel to be rescued. More on her later. The British villain is all evil, no complexity, and he succeeds in making the viewer hope Deadpool ignores the advice of the CGI character trying to convince him to be a hero and not shoot the Brit in the face (Deadpool delivers). More on the CGI guy later, too. The moody teen gets defined right away by Deadpool, who says she'll spend the whole movie brooding silently or saying mean things... and she does. Pretty boring, actually. Pretty abysmally boring, to be honest. Why would you put together these elements? I mean, on the one hand you have a movie that's trying to be unusual (at the very least) with a surprising number of crude jokes (it's true that you don't tend to see Spiderman or even Iron Man referencing his masturbation habits the way Deadpool does), but then they just build a story that's nothing short of one big cliche, and they populate it with characters who are also all cliches, except maybe for Blind Al, who, I admit, does stand out: she's an acerbic, elderly, blind, African American woman who is Deadpool's roommate.<br />
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<i>Deadpool </i>is an antihero's origin story and not much else. It plays out nonlinearly, which was exciting back when Tarantino was doing it, I <i>guess</i>, though I never thought it was that big of a deal to begin with.<br />
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So before I come back to a discussion of the Vanessa character and the Colossus character (both of which relate to the only two times the movie managed to surprise me) let's recap. <i>Deadpool </i>is unusual in that it breaks the fourth wall quite a bit. A lot of the jokes are off-color in a way you don't generally see in a superhero movie. And... well, there's the thing that happens with Colossus, but I think you'll agree once I get to that that it's really not enough to make the movie original. Otherwise you have an origin story which I guess does have another unusual element--the motive for Wade to become Deadpool is that he's dying of cancer. Having a lead make a massive life change due to cancer has been done (<i>Breaking Bad</i>) but not so much with superhero stories (which actually relates to the other thing that surprised me). But besides El Cancer (as Deadpool calls it) the origin story isn't particularly interesting or original--Wade lets an evil private corporation do an experimental procedure on him, becomes their prisoner as they torture him for a while, eventually the procedure takes, and voila, he's a regenerating machine. He's also horribly disfigured but I'm sorry, that's not all that original. Plenty of superheroes go farther in losing their former looks--Swamp Thing, Beast, Hulk (who, granted, gets to change back and look human sometimes), V from <i>V for Vendatta</i>, Marv from <i>Sin City,</i> etc. Deadpool, as an antihero, scars more than most heroes, but that's so unoriginal <a href="http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/GoodScarsEvilScars" target="_blank">TV Tropes addresses it</a>. We're meant to like Deadpool because he snarks in the face of torture (don't we just love leads who do that?) but again, so not original.<br />
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What's even more disappointing as you peel back the layers is that one of the main things that makes <i>Deadpool</i> unusual is actually built on some old, overused ideas. Namely the crude humor. A lot of it grows out of the same old homophobia and misogyny powering all the "funny" not-gay-but-gay scenes in otherwise really good shows like <i>Friends </i>and <i>Supernatural. </i>And it's really too bad, because sometimes Deadpool seems to be embodying a new kind of masculinity, in which feminine poses and admissions of weakness don't undermine his strength. But then he "kisses" an early male encounter to cement his dominance over him, makes fun of the Brit for having the first name "Francis" (which <i>clearly</i> means the Brit lacks some essential masculinity) and provokes a fight in a bar by buying a guy a "blow job" shot and making it look like another guy sent it to him. <i>Hilarious.</i> What's more, Deadpool is just another man-child. He loves his toys (literally, he collects Voltron figurines) and can't face his illness with any kind of maturity, while Vanessa steps up right away. How many couples have we seen where this is the dynamic? Why aren't people sick of the man-child/woman-mommy relationship?!?<br />
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And despite the inclusion of Blind Al, <i>Deadpool</i> manages to be racist. DP gets in a cab driven by a South Asian man who is a wide-eyed innocent. The cabbie is soon so enamored of DP that he doesn't react when DP stiffs him, and in fact will gladly pick him up again later. The cabbie is in love but a rival has stolen his fiancee--DP advises him to kill the rival and kidnap the fiancee (and after a flashback in which he condemned stalking, too), and by the movie's end the rival is struggling in the trunk of the taxi, so it's clear the cabbie will do exactly as DP suggested. The cabbie's sole purpose in the film is to provide comic relief (though I gather he's <i>not</i> who the opening credits call the "Comic Relief"--that's DP's bestie, Weasel). If I were a South Asian man watching the film, I wouldn't be too happy with that guy as a representative of people like me.<br />
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Did you see <i>Deadpool</i>? What did you think of it? Did it live up to your expectations or, like me, were you let down?<br />
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More on the characters of Vanessa and Colossus in the next post...<br />
<br />Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-81771419273794451132016-01-23T23:54:00.000-08:002016-01-24T00:00:16.954-08:00Chuck Wendig and Writing GoalsSo today I read a (very long) <a href="http://terribleminds.com/ramble/2016/01/20/some-thoughts-for-you-mid-career-writers-out-there/" target="_blank">blog post by Chuck Wendig</a>, which addresses what a mid-career writer should be concerned about. You don't see a lot of these blog posts as most tend to be geared either towards beginning writers, or address very specific aspects of writing and not so much career stuff. It was an interesting read, though quite a lot of it didn't apply for me because I'm self-published (he talks about agents and advances and such). But two aspects did stand out: 1) find a way to survive as a writer and 2) it's a smart idea to spend some time thinking about your writing goals.<br />
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In terms of #1, the idea is that mid-career is when a lot of people throw in the towel. Wendig emphasizes the survival goal as being the most important because of this. I think he's right, though I don't worry that much about quitting. I need to write to stay sane. If I take breaks for a couple of months at a time, no big deal, because I know I'll come back to it. If I don't, my mental health quite literally suffers, so there's really no choice in the matter. Of course I get discouraged when my sales tank (which they aren't doing right now so much as dipping rather unpleasantly), but in the end it doesn't matter. I could never sell another book again, I'd still have to write.<br />
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For #2 Wendig talks about how he plans his goals for one year, five years, and ten years. Reading that made me want to make myself a flowchart, so I could visualize my goals. I didn't go beyond a year(ish), though. I mean, my five year goal is basically to have completed the goals in the flowchart, and I can't picture what comes after that. General stuff, sure: be selling enough that I can use some of the money to pay for marketing, for one thing. But that's not a goal I can control so it's just sort of floating there. The one year goals are much more doable, so I focused on those. Of course it's probably more accurate to see them as like, three year goals. Even without two kids (and a third on the way! Yep, I'm insane--it was a surprise, folks, and I'm happy about it but woo-nelly, am I going to be swamped come mid summer)* there's too much to do to finish within a year. And one goal is to try to get traditionally published so that's going to take more than a year anyway, especially since I haven't finished the first draft of the novel I plan on submitting.<br />
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Anyway, here's the chart:<br />
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I've had several comments from readers of the decopunk books (<i><a href="http://amzn.to/1nGVBlG" target="_blank">The City Darkens</a> </i>and <a href="http://amzn.to/1K4lZzV" target="_blank"><i>After the Fall</i></a>) about how I need to get the third book out ASAP. I did start working on it a few months ago, but I didn't have a lot of it planned out and ended up stopping because I didn't know where I wanted to take it. I've been thinking about it lately, though, and I think I will probably get back to work on it soon.<br />
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I will definitely be writing another <a href="http://amzn.to/1nGYNxO" target="_blank">Veronica</a> book (which would be book 5). I have several ideas for book 5 as well as book 6, and the world and characters are so familiar and easy to get into now, it's just a matter of deciding that's what I'm doing next, and I'll crank it out. As such, though, it's not my top priority. I do think the Veronica series is the most likely to seriously take off. The decopunk trilogy is going to be too weird for a lot of people, and it has some flaws I just can't figure out how to fix, though I love the story and the characters. The decopunk trilogy has been such an opportunity to stretch myself as a writer, and for me that's worth it, but I am realistic about it. It's not what I set out to do when I started it, for one thing. I trying to create a story like <i><a href="http://amzn.to/1nGVrec" target="_blank">Kushiel's Dart</a>,</i> only set in a decopunk 1920s type world. Loads of people (myself included) wish they could visit Terre d'Ange, and I wanted to create a setting like that. What came out, though, was a cold dystopia I would avoid visiting pretty much at all costs, though. Too much of my cynicism found its way into those books, and book three is going to be very much in the same vein. I don't know if I'm even capable of creating a world that people want to visit or live in. That's actually the core of my goal with the YA magic school series (which may end up being a New Adult rather than YA series, depending on how much sex I want to include--I haven't decided). Yes, I am absolutely going to aim for something reminiscent of Hogwarts, because I love Hogwarts, and I want to manage to write about a setting I love. I'll deviate quite a bit, too. For one thing, I dream of visiting the Mediterranean again one day, so the setting of my magic school will no doubt be very much a place like Corsica or Greece. Maybe it'll be inspired by Ancient Greece, or at least a fantasy version of Ancient Greece. And I can tell you that it's going to be a bit of a response to <i><a href="http://amzn.to/1ngLEel" target="_blank">The Magicians</a>,</i> which I was terribly disappointed with. I mean, come on, what a cool premise! A college like Hogwarts, with adult students learning magic? A loser kid who has a chance to have everything he ever dreamed of? So cool! And then the loser kid never changes or grows or enjoys the gifts he's given. I wanted to throttle him. Anyway. Trying to talk back to <i>The Magicians--</i>that ought to challenge me to step away from my cynicism. If there's a core flaw in <i>The Magicians</i> it's the book's awful cynicism. But in any case, that one's not going to happen any time soon, I want to finish the trilogy and the book I labeled <i>Twin</i> in the flowchart first.<br />
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<i>Twin</i> is the working title of the book I wrote during NaNoWriMo this year (made it to 50K!). It was going well but I needed a break because carving out time to write every day was quite a strain on the family. But I'm definitely finishing it, I have lots of notes and ideas. The big question is, do I start with that or the third decopunk book?<br />
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And then there's the story of my grandmother Evelyn's life. I found out the third baby is a boy, so there goes my plan to honor my grandmother by naming a child after her (Evelyn used to be a boy's name, up until the 20th century, but I'm not going to saddle a boy with it). My grandmother was the most amazing woman, and one of the kindest, most generous people I have ever known. She used to tell stories of her life all the time, and she had <i>such </i>a fascinating life. Some of the stories were no doubt embellished, and some of my memories of the stories have probably distorted them. And on top of that if I were to write a novel based on her life I'd have to fill in a lot of blanks. So it really would be a novelization of her life. But I think it would be pretty awesome, nevertheless.<br />
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And finally the space opera idea... I love soap operas. I love cheesy space stories like <a href="http://amzn.to/1ngMiZp" target="_blank"><i>Flash Gordon</i></a> (and <a href="http://amzn.to/1ZVNHpL" target="_blank"><i>A New Hope</i></a>--it is a space opera, folks, even if it's franchise has perhaps risen above that since--<i>perhaps</i>). The thing that really draws me to write something like that is the challenge of creating amazing worlds and locations, like Cloud City in <i>Empire Strikes Back. </i>Say what you will about <i>Flash Gordon,</i> it took a powerful imagination to create that setting! So often worlds are clearly based on Earth and Earth's existing cultures, but in <i>FG</i> if that's the case it's really not obvious to me. The worlds in <i>FG</i> aren't even spheres! They are floating island-like places with various climates and topography. How does a person imagine places like that? That would be the challenge. Again, that's not happening right away, but I do see it happening most likely within the next three years. We'll see, of course. Another idea may come along and demand to go first. I'm not one to ignore that kind of thing.<br />
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What are your writing goals? Can you see beyond the immediate ones, to five or even ten years down the line? What ideas are percolating for you, story-wise? <br />
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*FYI if you are my friend on Facebook (not my author page, I'm talking friends with my personal profile) I haven't made an official announcement about the baby yet. All of my immediate family know, but I do intend to put together some sort of cute picture, so please keep the secret until then!Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-27305505234693189472015-11-02T09:15:00.000-08:002015-11-02T09:15:31.565-08:00NaNoWriMo 2015!I recently started an online writing group and it has done wonders for my motivation! I love talking about writing with other writers. I also rediscovered Kristen Lamb's blog after several years away thanks to <a href="http://lorisizemore.com/" target="_blank">Lori Sizemore</a>, and found it to be super motivating. Back in September when I thought about doing NaNo this year I figured, "Meh, I'm not going to hit 50K with my current schedule, but I'll do as much as I can." Not anymore, baby. Lamb is especially responsible for this with her post about <a href="https://warriorwriters.wordpress.com/2015/10/06/good-girls-dont-become-best-sellers-channeling-your-inner-bad-girl-to-reach-your-dreams/" target="_blank">Good Girls</a> and her post about <a href="https://warriorwriters.wordpress.com/2015/10/15/three-reasons-your-writing-career-is-stuck/" target="_blank">why your writing career might be stuck</a>. This quote from the Good Girls post really did it for me:<br />
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Because this is me. I fit my writing in wherever I can, and I don't ask my husband for any extra time. And it's not like he'd ever say no. He's totally supportive. But I feel guilty taking time away from him and the kids to go write. After reading these articles, though, I knew I have to do it. Just for November, I'm telling myself. We'll see how it goes. But on days when the older kid comes home at noon from preschool (there are two days a week where he stays in the afternoon, giving me several glorious hours for writing), I will leave once my husband gets home and go to the library for an hour and a half to write.<br />
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Yesterday I took three loads of laundry to the laundromat (because the piles of laundry were seriously starting to take over the house, and we don't have a working dryer) and got started on my NaNo book. It's my first foray into YA, a supernatural thriller set in the 1960s. I'm <i>so excited</i> about it. 1750 words so far, folks. Yay!<br />
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Are you writing a novel for NaNo this year? What's your schedule like? Do you have trouble giving priority to your writing? Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-13126830575434853052015-09-02T22:07:00.002-07:002015-09-02T22:10:27.261-07:00Getting the momentum going......is hard! Hard, I tell you! Gah.<br />
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"What in the world is she yelling about?" you wonder.<br />
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I'm trying to start book three in the Raud Grima trilogy. I've done a bunch of brainstorming and I've written the first 1600 words, but today I had several hours to write and instead I used them to participate on a debate forum I enjoy.<br />
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But there were people disparaging trans* folk, man. I had to call them out!<br />
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Not that I was alone in doing so... and it is <i>possible</i> that the other posters had it covered... <br />
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The real issue is I have this large scale habit when it comes to writing. It's a seasonal thing. I write the most in November-December. Then it tapers off for like six weeks to two months. But then it picks back up in March-May. Then in the summer, when usually the most I do is editing, and my writing dies down again, and it doesn't really get going until the following November.<br />
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The pattern has been that way for years--since 2006, I think.<br />
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NaNoWriMo is a big factor. I gear up for it and in years where I'm not overwhelmed by other stuff I do the 50K words in November, always with a new WiP. Then I keep going for a while, usually stalling a bit around 75K words. I have a hiatus, and then drive myself crazy thinking, "Come <i>on</i>, Sophia, you're <i>so close</i> to being done!" Which is not entirely true, as most of my novels have anywhere from 15K to 30K more words to go after 75K. But compared to the work that led to the production of 75K words, it's still a lot less.<br />
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So anyway, my point is it's September. This is not, historically, a productive month for me. I'm trying to buck the old system but my lazy self is just like, "<i>Noooo.... writing is work and work hurts my brain...</i>"<br />
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The next time I will probably have some uninterrupted time for writing is Monday, so really, what needs to happen is for me to <i>not</i> go on that forum at all. No checking for updates, nothing. Just sit down at the computer and write.<br />
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Do you have seasons when you are more productive? How do certain habits help or hinder you? Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-74658427011697844342015-08-21T22:51:00.000-07:002015-08-21T22:51:31.726-07:00Another shingle!Yes, folks, I've done it. I've hung up my shingle as an editor and ebook formatter. You can read all about how it works by clicking on either of the appropriate tabs above.<br />
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I am just starting to poke around to see where to advertise my services. Maybe if I get a client or two I'll spring for GoogleAds. It's hard to want to pay any money out without bringing even a little in first, though. Plus at the moment we are legitimately broke, as in, hope-we-have-enough-money-to-pay-for-the-baby's-daycare-in-September broke. It's always like that at the end of the summer, because they pay us for July and August at the same time as they pay us for June, and then we have to wait until the end of September for our next checks. Every year we try very hard not to spend too much. Each year we get a little better about it. But we still come up short. What can I say, it's a pretty major factor in the reasoning behind the hanging up of various shingles!<br />
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Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-3438798488180079362015-08-15T10:22:00.001-07:002015-08-15T10:22:38.819-07:00That Link I Promised for the Sold Book Cover.If you were curious about that cover that I sold on SelfPubBookCovers.com, <a href="https://www.facebook.com/SelfPubBookCovers/photos/a.354948154618146.81994.328349323944696/807888555990768/?type=1&theater">here's a link to an image</a> they posted on Facebook. There are nine covers pictured; mine is the one in the lower right corner, with the white background and silhouettes.Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918368103842623770.post-85451313083452541922015-08-12T20:41:00.000-07:002015-08-12T20:41:03.470-07:00I sold a cover!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I sold a cover on <a href="http://selfpubbookcovers.com/">SelfPubBookCovers.com</a>! Yay! I had posted two covers there, and sort of stopped thinking about them because I had too many other things to do to make new generic covers to submit to the site. And today, I got an email saying the cover sold! I'm not sure whether I can post it here, but as soon as they add it to the published covers page I'll update with a link to it.Sophiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092137613275942829noreply@blogger.com3